The Way He Looked At Her

I'm an idiot..

" Your going to be okay. " He said as he looked up at me. I still looked at him with sadness mixed with me being mad. I couldn't believe this was happening. I'm such an idiot. After everything that's happened. I heard footsteps coming towards us and then felt bullets coming in my back. I was in very bad pain. All I remember is Jax yelling.," Hey Em, you okay? Talk to me. Dammit Em, talk to me! " He said as he was shaking me to wake me up from this pain. I couldn't even talk back to him. I just couldn't move anymore. My eyes were rolling it felt like it was rolling out of my head. Then pain was coming over me. I closed my eyes as I then felt the sharp pains coming from my back. I couldn't do anything but fall into his arms and feel the sharp pains coming from my body and passed out. When I closed them I couldn't open them back up. As I tried to open them again the pains told me another story. It was coming down on me like heavy weights and how it feels like it's all over my body. I couldn't breathe it started to go black. I've just been so hard to be strong. I then open my eyes to white clouds. As I was standing on one. I saw my family members that have passed. I then saw Mom and Dad hand in hand. Smiling at me. I hugged them both as tight as I could. I then held on I saw my Aunt Tara. My Uncle Kim. My Grandpa from both sides from my Mom and Dad. Then others I hugged them all tight and cried happy tears. It was because of how I haven't seen most of them in years. Like when I was little or I have never seen them before but were told who they were. I was so happy. It was sad that I was probably dreaming all of this and is waking up soon. After everyone left except my parents I talked to them for a while and then asked them where I was. They both looked at each other for ten seconds then looked back at me Mom started talking again. " Honey, do you know what happened before you came here? " She looking at me in a serious voice. I explained to them and they were confused to why I said Jax's name. I then explained that to and they didn't understand because they saw Jax here and then he disappeared. I told them he came back on earth and then they looked at me sad. " Mom, Dad where am I? " I asked scared because I didn't really know if it was a dream or not. Mom and Dad looked at each other again and looked more sad and scared to tell me not knowing how I would react because of my past blow outs of anger or sadness. Mom talked with very much a serous face and voice. Dad did to but held on to my hand tight. It felt so real I held on just as tight it felt like my hand as about to break. " Your in heaven now sweetie. When you were getting shot it got to you and it started to hurt you. It's okay now honey Jax will be alright. He might not be now it might be as bad as you were when you lost him those many years. But some day he is going to be alright. " I had to let go of Dad's hand. Then get up and walk around with my hands in my face oh no this can't be happening to me. Me of all people.