The Way He Looked At Her

Only if things would go away.

  I couldn't go threw school so my Mom took me home. She yelled at me and that didn't make anything better. So, I went and cried in my room wanting to die. Now I'm just staring at the walls some of them with Jax and I together.

   Then some of just Jax and how handsome he is. When I would took a pictures of him. He would block his face but I would try to get a picture of his face as he would always have a way to block his face. I would get mad and not try anymore.

   He would just look at me weird then hug me laughing and kiss my head. I would give him evil eyes then hug him back. I miss him. I know that I saw him today but I mean I miss the old Jax. 

  When I first saw him we were little. I was 5 and Jax was 6 so you can guess I was getting picked on and Jax would come and stand up for me. He would stand up to anyone for me. Everything was going great. 

  Friend wise. Until I ruined it. I was thinking of Jax in that way. Then I thought he was giving me signs that he liked me in that way.

   But god was I wrong. I kissed him on the lips then once I saw how shocked his face was I left him there looking at me like I just did the worst thing ever and I probably did. We didn't talk for a while. Then when he came to my door step on a January night while it was snowing he was in his pajamas looking like he couldn't sleep for days.

   I couldn't ether. But when I looked in to those blue eyes that were looking at me. I knew that was the night my life changed forever. Then he told me he felt the same way and it was the best night of my life. 

  We kissed while it was snowing that night. It felt right. With his arms around me. Things were simple.

   Things were better. But here we are almost a year later here I am crying for him to be in my arms again. I feel so weak. I don't know how am going to be able to do this anymore without him.

   I just want something to go right. My life is really over.