The Way He Looked At Her

Stuff is going to my head.

  I woke up after crying in my sleep. I want just one day, I want things to go okay. My Mom probably thinks that I'm a horrible person. Which is fine everyone else does.

   I get up wishing I didn't wake up today. I go to the shower and picked my clothes out, put makeup on. Then was ready for this horrible day to come. I went downstairs hoping my Mom wasn't up. 

  She was probably drinking all night. That is what she does at night. I don't see her that much only at dinner. When I was here which wasn't that much. 

   Jax and I would do our own thing like hanging out. She would just be drinking. Her and Jax's Mom didn't get along very well. The last time they saw each other was when I said that Jax and I were going to take the next step which was dating at the time.

    I told everyone in the room which were my mom, his mom, his biker family, his father in law, then others. But my Mom didn't like it because of Jax's past. I didn't care what she had to say at the time because I was so in love with Jax. His mom was talking about it all and my mom was pretty much already very drunk and his mom was buzzed that was all it took for everything to go wrong. 

  I wasn't allowed back at the club anymore but Jax never gave up on me and I never gave up on him. I just hate that our love is not even alive anymore. Because of all of this "keeping you safe" thing is getting to me. I wasn't in any danger that I knew of.

   Well, it sucks when no one wants to deal with you. I get my backpack and black high tops and leave. When I leave in my car I go to the school of broken dreams. I just sit there and breathe for a minute. 

  Then realize I was about to have a break down again. I look out the window and see the one and only Jax Teller talking to a group of people knowing that is my car and I freak out even more. I don't want to see him right now. He shouldn't talk to me after yesterday. 

  Oh god first period I'm next to him Someone needs to put me in a mental hospital. Because I really think I'm going to lose it right now. He looked at me confused because he could see me and I didn't look so good. I just stare at him for a sigh to help me and he stops talking to his friends and runs to me.

   I can't feel my heart beat that well anymore. I felt like I was going to pass out Jax opens the door and looks at me. "Hey, what's wrong?" He said as he held my hand I just look at him and my body has had enough and I closed my eyes.

   I heard Jax yelling my name. Then shaking me. I fell in this spell and I feel Jax caring me somewhere then nothing else happened that I remember.