The Way He Looked At Her

Things getting worse.

As I was getting ready for work still I'm the bathroom I couldn't help but think of all the girls again. I need to stop this before it ends me. When I got out of the bathroom Jax was still here in my room. He was sitting on the now made bed. When I went over to him he didn't look happy like he was before then I saw the wall near the dresser that now had a hole as big as someone's fist. He looked at me and said, " I'll fix that for you I'm sorry. " He said as he put his hands is his face looking down. I went and rubbed his back. " What's wrong? " I said after a few minutes of silence. He put his head back up and looked at me. " Clay called, The Mayans went and took most of our guns last night while no one was there. " He said as he tried to calm himself down because of the anger was showing up in his face again. I kept rubbing his back. " I'm so sorry. " I said as I tried to calm him down. He was trying not to snap which was hard for him to do because of the anger filling him up. " I should of been there this is all my fault. " He said as he looked down. " No it isn't Jax. If anything its mine. I made you come here and stay with me. " " No I did. This has nothing to do with you Em. It's all me. " He said as he held his head low. I went and hugged his left side of his body as I kept rubbing his back still. He just looked down at me as I held him. He put his arms around me which cause me to hold on to him tighter. I wish I didn't have to leave him but I had to leave for work. " Jax, I got to go to work. " I said as I looked up at him. " Oh, when do you get out? " He said as him looked down at me. " At 9 night. " I said as I let go of his arms. " The club will probably be done with me by then. " He said as he let go of me. " Good, so I'll see you tonight? " I said as I got up. " Yeah I'll see you night. " He said as he got up and kissed my head. He was leaving to. So we went outside hand and hand. I looked at him then the Harley Davidson. " Bye Jax. " " Bye Em. " He said as he still held on to my hands. I kissed him on the cheek and let go of his hand then went to my car. He went and put his helmet on and winked at me and drove off. I smiled a real one. That I haven't had in a while. It made me feel good. I went and pulled out and went straight to work. I went and put the radio on. Listened to music and when I went to my office I just put my head down kinda aggravated that I am at work. What a life.