The Way He Looked At Her

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Jax's pov~

When I was Em beginning to get shot I cot her and she was dead. She eyes closed I ran to my mom that shot her and told her why. My mom didn't even say anything so I just ran us to the car as I tock her to the hospital but in her car where I knew the keys were in the bowl. So I drove to the hospital while I put her in the passenger side and they thought that there was no way to save her but I told them there had to be a way to save her. They put her on life support. It's been almost a week now and I've checked on her everyday gave her flowers. Then the club came. They wondered why I was there with her, long story. But I could them that I knew she couldn't see me so it's not like she will know I'm with her even though Mom told me not to see her anymore. I don't know why, she is perfectly safe now. Well was. Until my dumbass Mom came and pretty much killed her. It's been almost five years ago since the Mayans have been trying to hurt her to shut me down but they never talked about her again after that. Not sure why. Probably thought we killed her or something. They have been getting personal lattey not sure why. It hurts me to see her look like this. With all these wires and the air machines. Trying to keep her alive but nothing has worked. I don't want to lose her. Now I know what she felt that night she lost me. But the thing is I wasn't really dead. Okay, what happened was my mom though is was a good idea to think I was dead to save her. What had happened was the guy really did shot me. It hurt like a bitch. They drugged me to think I was dead. So when I woke up a few weeks later they told me everything but I was trying so hard to find her they wouldn't let me. Which really wanted to be dead then trust me. Being dead was easier then staying away from her. But after what the Mayans have done to as lattey I'm kind of glad she isn't up right now to see it. It would hurt her even more knowing that she would be awake to see more of the pain. I always have tried to get her away from that she has already been threw too much stuff in her life then having to deal with me is a hard job and the club also my Mother I don't even want to think about her right now. I just want to keep Em safe but I can't knowing that no time at all they could all kill her cold blooded like my own mother just did to her. It would want me to die again then see her like this ever again. I never want this to happen again I just have to control myself. It's been so hard. So hard knowing she could die any day if not now and here I'm am right now in a sit staring at her and just waiting for her to come back in my arms like she has tons of times I got to do something. I got to make her wake up somehow. Sometime she has to come back to me. I won't let her die like this. I love her, I love her so much...