The Way He Looked At Her

She makes me sick..

As I see her face looking like she was about to cry. She must not know that I know that Jax is alive. If anything she might not know that he is alive. Or she knows and is playing an act. I wave my hand hi and she looks confused. I think she knows but I think she knows I know about Jax. Because of course she tried to shot me. I got my gun and aimed it at her head. I wanted to shot her so bad it would of been a lift off my shoulders. But of course Jax needed his mother. I know she will know that I know about Jax but I wouldn't do that to Jax. I put the gun down and put it in my back pocket. She stared at me like I was crazy. But maybe I was. Letting her go after a long time. But Jax is alive. My love is still here and has a another chance. For me I might be better than I was four years ago. Way better. Gemma still aimed the gun she has in her aim at my chest. Probably so I can feel the pain but it will slowly kill me. I just looked at her. Blank in the face. Just standing there. Jax was probably with the club members doing some business. Because if he saw this he would be the idiot and run outside and probably get shot again. He would probably kill his own mother if he had to save me or him. I wouldn't want to see that happen. It would be painful watching Jax getting killed again. That is why am just standing here. If that means I get killed then I don't know what I'm going to do. Gemma doesn't know how to react to all of this and am kinda happy about it. Kinda happy she is so confused. Because that means that she can't think with me just standing here. I was almost about to laugh but she has a gun in her hands. She was about to shoot when I moved and ran to my car. Thinking she was all cool she thought it was cool to shoot me when I was starting my car. I just want to go home. I guess she didn't want to follow me so I went on my way home thinking.