The Way He Looked At Her

I just..

  After my talk with Mom I went in my room. She said that she will try to get me out of school for a little bit. So I can just be okay again if that ever happened. I went to go up to the roof quietly so Mom wouldn't think I was trying to kill myself.

  She has never seen me so upset before. She really didn't know what to do. She tried to help me don't get me wrong but, I just want to be alone. Mom never knew I went on the roof.

  I only did it because Jax thought it was cool and a spot to chill out and be safe. Now I know what he meant. Now I know why he thought what it was. God, I miss him so much already.

  I miss him so much. I just want one last kiss. One last hug. Something to know that he is watching me or something.

  I then felt wind coming along the right side of my face. But not that I fell or anything. I then pulled my black leather jacket that Jax got me on our fourth date tugged tighter around me. I never leave the house without it when it gets cold.

  He gave me some other things like my teddy bear Jax Jr. I know it's lame because I named the bear after him but at the time it was a good idea. Now it is going to be hard to even look at the bear. I went down to my room and turned my light back on so I could just forget that happened today.

  I want to forget that I almost got killed and Jax did. I want just forget everything. I went and put the leather jacket in my closet. I then got dressed in a black tank top and black booty shorts.

  I put the light off then layed on my bed to look at Jax Jr. He is a brown bear with a red bow. I held on to him and held him tight. He a little bear but it wasn't so little that you could just hold him in your hand.

  He is I guess hug able. I just now want to sleep and just see Jax again. I know it would only be in my dreams but that is way better than nothing. I just want to just go to sleep now.

  I looked at the ceiling then fell asleep dreaming of us when if first began.