Accidentally Became Luna

ABL 40: Being Alone Again

Thirty hours and twenty-five minutes. That was how long it had been since Miall fell asleep, and in those hours, I had only slept for five in total.

It was probably not my place to be right here next to him, but I couldn't help worrying or wanting to take the pain from him, which was stupid of me.

I had only known him for four months, and that one night, and I have grown to care for him so much.

Despite all the angst he had put me through, I was putting it all aside because it hurt to see him like this.

Lying in bed, unconscious.

At first, he was always thrashing in pain, and Nyleve tried to get me away from him, but I couldn't handle it.

How foolish of me. What can a human girl do, really? There wasn't much I could do to take his pain away, but I still wanted to be here, close to him.

This was the only way I could comfort him.

I sat on the chair across his bed, supporting my head against my unwounded hand. My left hand rested on my lap as I watched him breathe. I patiently waited for the moment he would wince in pain so that I could call out for his doctor.

However, that moment never came. It felt like it had been a long time since he slept peacefully, without his sleep being disturbed by pain, and that was a relief.

Of course, I wished he would wake up soon and tell me what was wrong with him since Nyleve and the doctors wouldn't.

I didn't understand why she had to keep me in the dark so much, either about her son or sometimes even about me.

Well, I guess those could be thoughts to ponder on for another day; right now all of my attention should be on Miall.

"Amanah, you should really go home and rest," Malakhi said as he stood by the doorway with Anin next to him.

"I'm fine," I smiled at them before returning my gaze to Miall. What if I missed something in those few seconds?

"How is he?" He asked as he stood next to him. I raised my eyebrow and answered.

"I don't know how to respond to that since I don't know what's wrong with him, but he seems to be doing better," I folded my arms against my chest and leaned against the chair.

"How about we go to the clinic quickly and check on you, hmm?" Anin asked sweetly, and I shook my head. I get that everyone had my best interests in mind, but I honestly couldn't focus with all of them hovering over me every five minutes.

"You can check me here; it's just my blood pressure you want to check, right?" Anin looked defeated for words; she nodded with a small smile and looked at Malakhi as if begging him to do something.

"Amanah, they have watermelon ice cream. Don't you want to go get some with me?" Malakhi asked, and I shook my head. "Come on, it's your favourite treat," he raised his fists, and I looked at him from the corner of my eye.

"No, thank you," I said softly, and he dropped his hands. I knew I was difficult, but I just wanted to be alone. "Please excuse me," I said as I got up.

"Where are you going?" Anin asked me, and I clenched my hands behind my back. I just wanted to scream, but they were not the root of my annoyance and anger.

"To the toilet; I'll be back soon," I smiled, and she nodded.

Having done my business, I washed my hands and splashed water on my face. I never thought I would be one of those dramatic beings who had a breakdown in the toilet.