Accidentally Became Luna

ABL 29: What I Really Wanted.

Miall

I sat between my mother and Malakhi as we listened intently to The White Prowler Pack's proposal. They wanted our packs to join and have one huge, harmonious family after all they had done.

This was a waste of time.

"This is shit," Malakhi said through the mind link; both my mom and I nodded as we stared at the Prowlers representative.

"Can't we just say no and leave?" I asked as I sagged a bit on my chair.

"You be quiet; you're still on preliminary, so you don't have much of a say, and sit up straight," she bit out, and Malakhi snorted as I sat up. Their eyes turned to us, and Malakhi apologised.

My mother was extremely mad at me because of what happened between Willow and me, so she suspended me. That is correct, and I am a suspended Alpha. Luckily, I could still attend the meetings just to keep up with what was happening. However, I didn't really have much power when it comes to making decisions.

It was not that I didn't trust my mother and Malakhi, but I would also like to be heard when it came to matters concerning my pack. I understand that what happened was extremely terrible, and there wasn't a day that went by that I didn't feel horrible.

What I did was unforgivable, but I never thought people would hate me this much.

Everybody, and I meant everybody, had turned their backs on me. My mother only talked to me about matters that concerned my pack; Malakhi barely talked to me unless we had to go to training or patrol.

The rest of my pack still respected me, but it was clear that they were all disappointed in me even though they didn't know what happened. They assumed I fought with Amanah, and I thanked the heavens, which was what my mother told them.

I was disappointed in myself, but everything just happened so fast.

I knew it was not an excuse or valid reason, but I barely remembered what was going on through my head right after Amanah walked away from me; everything from there on was fuzzy, but I did remember having sex with Willow, fuck.

I messed up.

Amanah had sort of disappeared from Nioz. My mom said she was okay and safe, but I wasn't allowed to see her until she decided she wanted to see me.

The only reason Orion hadn't killed me as he promised was because that meant he would be dead as well, but he enjoyed being around Amanah a bit too much to die just yet.

It was not like I could go behind their backs and visit her or stalk her on earth since all the things that made me alpha were taken from me; I just wish they had taken Orion as well. I could never have any sort of peace for just an hour with him around.

It was well deserved, though.

He continuously tortured me slowly with memories of Amanah crying or randomly snapping my finger, and if I were lucky, it would be my leg.

I was sorry, I am sorry, and there was not a day that went by that I didn't apologise to Amanah... of course, now all I could do was text her phone and hope she read my texts.

"You deserve nothing but the worst," Orion sneered, and I blankly stared at the representative as he presented the benefits of our merging. "And can you tell that little fucker to shut up already? Nobody is interested in this offer."

He grumbled as he folded his leg over the other. Yet he listened well enough to make comments about how that wouldn't work out or how this would just piss him off.

I envied Malakhi and his wolf; they easily got along and rarely fought. In fact, if I hadn't been born with Orion, he would've been Alpha and a great one at that, unlike me. He was nice to everyone, and he never made dumb choices as I did despite being smart; plus, he loved Amanah more than I did.