the light in his dark

Part 17

The competition was moving forward. I proposed to the parents that we see each other several times this week to be sure that the choreography is perfect for D-Day

Instead of being in 5 days it is tomorrow days. And four days less is hugh. We work hard and the kids are doing amazing. None of them miss a class and it's the more important.

I try to concentrate the more i can on this so i won't think of James. It's been 7 days and i miss him. I create this choregraphy while thinking about him. This choregraphy represented the love between two people completly different

Like James and Me

I know it's stupid to try not to think about something by doing something who remind you that.

The only things i didn't wanted to do i did them. I didn't want to leave him and i did and i didn't want to hurt him and i did by doing that

I told Kellie what happened. Well not everything because i don't know what she knows by Travis so i didn't talk about the fact he killed someone but i told her he lied to me on something really important

We repeat the choregraphy since this morning. I won't tired them too much because they have to be energic tomorrow but i need to be sure everything is good.

I do some change while i teach them the dance ut that's normal. It's complicated to create a choregraphy for 10 people while you're alone.

The parents are waiting for them behind us while they show me for le last time before the D-Day the choregraphy.

"it's perfect. Good job" i tell them and me and the parents applause them "alright i'll see you tomorrow. Be streche alread before coming tomorrow even if we'll streche together and don't repeat the dance tonight. You need to rest and believe me you're ready so no stress" i tell them before they're running to their parents

I clean the room after they left. When i'm infront the mirror i look through it the place where James standed when he cames to see me after my class. I feel my eyes watering. I really miss him

I sigh and look away. I turn off the music and pack my things. I walk out the room and close it with my keys. While walking home i feel uncomfortable. Like if someone is looking at me. I shake my head to threw away this bad feeling and i walk faster

I sigh in relief when i finally close my appartment door. I see Kellie and Travis in the couch and they turn to me when they hear me "you okay ?" Kellie asks conserned

"yeah i'm fine don't worry. It's just been a long day" i laugh nervously and go sit beside them

"you were teaching all day ?" Travis asks and i nod "yeah the competition is tomorrow and i wanted to be sure everything was perfect. It's the first time a group i teach is select to a mini competition junior so i didn't want to screw it up" i shurg

"yeah that's fair but you're an amazing teacher to them and an amazing ballerina so i'm not septic" Travis winks at me i smile at him "thanks"

I look at the clock and see it's 5pm. I decide to go take a long bath and then go to sleep because i need a long night sleep with all the stress i'll have tomorrow. And the faster we're tomorrow, the faster tomorrow will end.

During all my bath i think about james. How i want him to be behind me. How i want him to wash me like others time. How i want him to take care of me and tell me that tomorrow is going to be okay. That kind of stuff boyfriend told their girlfriend and vise versa

I'm no expert on couples etc but I've seen it in movies and books. I thought it wasn't like that in real life. Thanks Karl. But James gives it to me