the light in his dark

Part 36

It's been two weeks since I woke up and since then I work hard on my rehabilitation.

It's been one week since I can get up off this bed so everyday I get up, even if some day it's more hard than another but I don't give up

knowing how to get up means being able to see James, being able to work on my healing so even if it's hard I put everything i can to go as far as possible

I go see James three times a day, when I woke up in the morning by a nurse I immediately go see him. It take me at least five minutes to sit on the bed and then five others until I have my balance on my feet and I try to go to his room on my own

I can ask a wheelchair if I want to but where will it take me ? If I ask for help I couldn't do it on my own after. So where's the point ?

When I'm finally in his room in the morning I sit on a chair beside his bed and I take his hand on mine.

I had a big smile when I see that James had my scrunchie around his left wrist. I let him wore it because this scrunchie is like my lucky charm and I want him to have it

I talk to him about how my night was and I complain every morning about the nurse who come to wake me up four times a night and how it annoyed me because I only like when it's James who woke me in the middle of my night

I come back to see him when I have lunch and I complain how bad the food is. I explain to him that I eat a little. Not everything or not everytime but I try and I'm proud of myself that I can do it

I don't know why or how but I manage to do it. I guess if I told him I'm eating he would maybe open an eye and tell me he is proud of me

But for now he doesn't but Kellie's parent and Miss Jane do. They come to see me four times a week and Kellie is always stuck in my room

Layla and Matteo came to see me everytime they get the chance to. It really help me because they come when I'm eating, when they're on their lunch break so they eat with me and Matteo always distracted me from my food by making me laugh

They show me the choreography we need to learn for the audition and they send me videos so I can learn it on my own

I still don't know when I can leave this hospital but even if I can go home I'll be stuck here everyday because I won't let James alone, not even a single minute and I will have to come back every day for my rehabilitation exercises with my doctor anyways

I have exercices two hours everyday and I didn't thought it will help but it does. I can see a little change every day

I train everyday too with dance but the more I train and the more I found it hard. The more I start to think that I won't be able to dance like before and I won't be able to do my audition

''Take it slow Wendy'' the nurse says before walking out of James room

I'm leaning on the end of his bed facing him with my ankle above my head. I do those stretching everytime before I dance

It's still hard to do it so I'm not as far as I was before my injuries but i know that if I do that everyday, even a few times during the day it will help

I lower my leg back down and I rest it on the end of his bed and I start stretching again. I like using the end of his bed as a dance barre

I admire him as I do my dance and I love it. Doing something I love while watching someone I love

The nurse come and get me when they need to wash him because they know I want to do it so he smells nicely and he is all handsome because of me

Don't get me wrong. He is still handsome when he is dirty and even if he smells a little I don't mind. The more important is that I'm with him