the light in his dark

Part 57

To my lovely family,

I feel good, you know when people say when you're dying you don't feel the pain at some point ? Well that's how i feel right now. I know i don't have long until i passed out so if you read this letter that means that i'm not here anymore but don't be too sad.

I know what you're gonna say ; how can we not be sad ? I know you'll be sad for a while but i feel good, i'm not in pain and i leave happy. I want you to be sad but just a little. Get out of your chests the pain you feel through tears and anger but i don't want you three to spend your whole life crying over me. I'm happy from the life i had and i'm more than happy to leave knowing that you were beside me. I wasn't alone, i never was and i'm relieve that you have each other. Please look after each other because i couldn't do that anymore You were all my life and you'll always be. I'm proud of everything you guys ever did and i'm amaze to see you right now, to see you live your life like you always dreamed.

Kellie look at you! You are married with a man i love. I never thought i'll love or even like the man who will steal you from me. To me i was the only man in your life and i guess i was until you meet Travis. Know that i love this man and i love how he is with you. Don't be afraid of the futur. Of your futur, because you will always stand up from everything you'll go through either you are alone or with people you trust. Don't understimated you because you are way better than the way you see yourself, trust me. And i don't say that because i'm your father but because i know you and i believe in you

Marina, my love, my wife, my dream, my life. I spend my whole life loving you. Even when i didn't know you, even when we hadn't met yet i loved you. When my eyes were on you the very first time i felt my heart slamming out of my chest, running to you and jumping inside your chest. I had the feeling that my heart, that day, stayed in you at the end of the day, interwined with yours. That's when i knew i will live my life with you beside me. All the things we went through bring us where we are today, how and who we are today. I love you more and more everyday, I discovered you every day, my love for you always grow bigger and bigger. I was proud to call you my wife and i loved every moment i spend with you. thank you for the amazing life you gave me and the perfect daughter you gave us. I can never thank you enough for everything and even if i can't do it anymore that doesn't mean i'm not thankful anymore, i'll always be

Wendy, my Wendy, you already know what i think about you. I'm proud of you. Look at where you were years ago and look at you know. You may have not do everything you wanted because some battles are harder than others but every day i saw you fighting to win those battles. I know how you feel about yourself but you are a woman, a beautiful woman and i was amazed to see everything you've done in your life and i hope that you'll do thousand other things you'll loved. Live your life with James, travel with him, work in a job you love and you want to do, not in a job we're you'll end up hating, don't do a job just to say to do one. Do something you love and for the one you're good at, because, believe me Wendy, you're good in so many different things. I know you'll live a happy and perfect life

You, girls, are my whole life.
I love you, always and in every other world.
Your dad, your husband
Stephen