the light in his dark

Last part

White

I always loved the color white

I heard people said the color white was a rich color. I never really thought like that because for me it was just a color. But when I see myself in the mirror right now I understand why people say that.

For me, since today the color white is a rich color. My wedding is rich. Rich in people we love. Rich in fun, rich in music, rich in love

"I waited for this moment my whole life" Kellies giggles through her tears

I laugh "you didn't waited your marriage your whole life ?" I question raising an eyebrow. I look at her through the mirror as she wraps her arms from behind me around my neck. She rests her chin on my shoulder "I've been waiting for yours longer than mine" She whispers eyeing me

Kellie fought like nobody else to get my wedding dress in time. I wasn't late to get it done but apparently they, and when I say 'they' I talk about the dressmaker and his assistants so basicly people who are supposed to know their job, weren't organized so they sort of forgot my dress

I called the dressmaker and asked him at what time he wanted me to come and get my dress and he just told me he forgot and he will try to finish it in time but he wasn't promising anything

I called Kellie before calling James when I learn about that. I was literally crying telling her that the everything was ruined. We had only 4 days until the wedding and it's impossible to do the dress in 4 days.

She tried to reassure me by telling me that it was his job to created outfit and stuff so he is able to do it in such a short time. But that didn't help. I was just crying in the bathroom as James was going out to drink with his friends

So since he and Travis was away with friends, Kellie came to pick me up and went to the store owned by the dressmaker, Lucas I think it's his name. I was a crying mess in the car but calm down, being in a car calm me down sometimes and fortunally it helped that day

She opened the door of the store with so much force that I thought it was going to come off. I was following closely behind her but I didn't said anything, I let her screaming at everyone she walks near by

When I think about it, it was pretty funny. Of course at that moment I wasn't laughing at all but it's a story I could explain with laughters now.

"you're beautiful Wendy" She says letting a tears falling on my shoulder. I smile at her through the mirror and grab her hand. Marina appears from behind us with an excited and happy face

It's crazy how happy I feel right now. Everything is doing perfectly well in my life since some weeks. I waited a long time for all of this and I'm not only talking about the wedding or Broadway but about James and all our friends and family too

For a long time I felt like I didn't had a home I could've call mine. Once mom passed away I went to Kellie's house and I had fun there but it never felt like home, like  my home. It was always and it will always be Kellie's house even when I lived with them.

When I lived with Kellie in our appartment It didn't felt like home either. I know it was just the two of us but I wasn't all myself there. it was like something missed and always missed in every places I lived

"are you ready ?" Marina asks from behind

I take a breath and nod smiling. Kellie hold my flowers as we went to the car who will bring us to our wedding place

Even if I love him to death and I know we will both say 'I do' I'm scared like- very very scared. Just think about it, I have to walk down an alley with everyone turning to you, watching your steps and watching your face