the light in his dark

Part 31

My phone is still in my hand after Alvaro hangs up.

I don't want to believe what I heard

He kidnapped her, he really kidnapped her.

I was at my fucking building while she was living the fear of her life

After a while I finally react and look down at the shoes and see all of my shoes but not hers.

Not the one she wears usually to go to ballet. I look at the hanger and see all of my jacket but not the one she takes everytime.

Irun into the living room and see nothing but the couch and all the blanket on it. I grab all of them and threw them on the floor. Obviously she wasn't there

The hope of seeing her lying on this couch while waiting for me flies away.

The hope of seeing her asleep in our bed flies away

The hope of seeing her in our kitchen having a tea or just on the stairs flies away

Everything flies away. My image of the future with her. What can our future family look like. What she would look like in 5,10,20 years, flies away

I grab a vase on the living room table and throw it through the room before it hits the wall Infront of me

I need to evacuate this anger and all those feelings I feel right now before seeing Alvaro tomorrow

If I react he will hurt her but how could I stay calm in the face of all of this?

Staying calm while Wendy is tortured or locked up somewhere in the dark with the only roommate who is nothing else but her fear

I can't stop. I break and break everything that comes to my hands. The remote control, glasses, vases, plant pots, table

Everything

I was going to throw my phone away when I received a call from Travis. I answer immediately and I don't give him the opportunity to speak

I tell him that Wendy was kidnapped by Alvaro and that he wants to see me tomorrow. I explain everything to him. Everything that happened in the last 15 minutes

He tells me that he will be at my house, our house, in 10 minutes with my father, my cousin and Fred

I try not to lose my head but it's difficult. Everything is around this little woman. All the things I like is relate to her

If she disappears from my life I don't know if I can do it. I don't even know how I managed to live before she crossed my path

She is my everything, she is my life, if she asks me to do something I'll do it with my eyes close. Anything that can make her happy I will do

She was happy with me. She thought she was safe when she was with me but here she is now. Locked up somewhere without any understanding because of an act I committed

Or an act that I didn't commit. I should have put more effort into finding Alvaro. I should have insisted when we had no trace of him.

If I hadn't been so busy or as stupid maybe now she will be near me, warm, with her tea in her little hands in front of Friends or with a book in her hand

My front door opens aggressively and I look up to see Travis, Sam, Fred and my father come back into the house and stop when they see the condition of the room

For just a second, the second I take to look up I thought maybe, just maybe it was her. She has escape and came back

But I know it's just me who imagine that. She can't escape without my help. I probably couldn't escape myself either without help