the light in his dark

Part 38

Where are they? It's been 20 minutes i'm waiting for them and they still aren't here

I look at my left and I see James freshly shaved. I keep biting my nails as I look at my right to the door.

If Travis and Kellie make me wait any longer I think I'm going to lose my mind because of the stress. I'm already stressed enough because of the audition, I didn't need to be added the stress of telling myself that I'm going to be at the audition late if they don't arrive soon

I think I will never get over it if I miss the audition because of a delay or if it takes away my chance to be selected. All this work can fall into the water just because of a tiny delay

I go back and forth at the foot of James' bed. I constantly look at my phone to see if I have a message or a missed call from one of them but for now I have nothing on it. My nails don't look like anything anymore because I'm eating them to relieve my stress

With a little luck my footsteps and mouth noises will wake up James. As he hates when I walk around because I'm stressed and I gnaw my nails and I keep telling myself that he's going to wake up to tell me to leave his room 'cause, because of me he can't rest well

I know that it only happens in the movies, but this hope remains in a corner of my head constantly

''Relax Wendy. They will be here soon. We have time'' I hear Lila's voice but it's as if what she was telling me was not impregnated in my head. I understand what she wants to tell me but I can't help but contradict her mentally by telling me that we're screwed

"Stop walking around Wendy you're gonna make me dizzy" Matteo groans next to Lila

"I can't help it. They are 20 minutes late. We had planned to arrive early so we wouldn't get stressed and see what situation we are in! Either they're late because they take their time and I'm really going to get mad or something is happening and I'm going to feel bad for thinking about all of this" I say before putting my nail back between my teeth

I handle my stress badly and my entourage quickly notice it from our first meeting. I had planned everything within minutes to prevent me from stressing myself even more

Of course I know that there was always a risk that something would not get in place and mess up all my organization, like now, but telling myself that I had planned everything reassured me even if I suspected that something would not go as I planned

"Wendy put your goddamn asses on a freaking chair and stop walking around because it's really starting to annoy me and I'm going to lose my patient soon. The last thing I want to do is upset you if I get angry'' Matteo says raising his voice showing his clear annoyance.

I turn around and see him with his arms crossed on his chest and he is actually standing and no longer sitting. Lila is looking with her raised head at Matteo before looking at me

I remove my fingers from my mouth and groan before heading towards the end of James' bed. I sat on his ankles without taking my eyes off of the door

The constant little noise of the machines around us makes me even crazier and makes the times going even more slower.

I'm happy to go to the audition because on the one hand I've been waiting for this all my life and it will also be good for me to get out of here  after being here all day and all night and be able to immerse myself back in my world of dance as before when I was going to train every day is freaking amazing

It's 8am and we have rehearsals from 8:30 am to 1pm before the selections begin. From then on, we're all in the rehearsal room waiting for someone to call our name to tell us that this is the moment we've been waiting for an eternity