Nakaw Na Pagsinta [COMPLETED]

NNP 35 - Only

My brows puckered and tore my gaze to where we are heading. The familiar routed made my face questioned our destination.

Akala ko mag-uusap kami?

Bakit nandito kami?

Are we allowed to be here, yet?

He stop the car, we are in the middle of the new and unfinished, Davao City's coastal road.

I bet his position made it possible for us to be here. I look at the scenery behind the car window, this place changed so much from my last memory.

Nawala ang maliit na bahay sa paligid, napalitan ng malaki at mahabang kalsada.

No vehicles yet, it is still prohibited to enter since the project is on going. But this part of the road, is almost finished.

Malaya mong matataw ang malawak na dagat, kung baba siguro ako ay malalanghap ko ang sariwang hangin na dulot nito.

I flung myself on the back rest, letting out a frustrated sigh. I wish I'm allowed to enjoy this scenery in front of me. But no, the previous scenery on my head would not let me.

Masyadong apektado ang utak ko sq nangyari kanina. How I wish, I am stubborn enough to restrained myself from attending the wedding.

"Paige." Evan grunt beside me. I ignored it, ayokong harapin siya. "I told you I was affected.."

"Yes, Evan. I heard you. Hindi ko nakakalimutan 'yon, affected ka.." my voice crack a little, I'm afraid if I speak further, I might cry again.

"That's a sensitive topic, Paige. You can leave it behind, but you dragged the topic to point out because you're angry with Ciello, with them. Pwede kang magalit sa kanila ng hindi mo sinasali...ang anak ko." Like me, he's having a hard time swallowing those lump on his throat.

Our child is forever be a sensitive topic.

"Sorry, for being insensitive. I shouldn't bring that up...I was just mad because they always force me to speak to them. Nadamay ko tuloy...'yon."

"It's years, Paige. Hindi pa rin nakakalimot ang puso ko sa sakit na dulot 'nun. I barely think about it. My guilt arise whenever it slipped in my mind." his voice is normal, but  me knowing him, the pain is still there. "Nakakgalit lang isipin na ang dali sayo na i-bring up ang bagay na 'yon."

Mas lalo kong pinalipad ang tingin ko sa tanawin sa harap ko. Mas pinalaki ko rin ang mga mata ko, I can't cry right now.

"Hindi dapat 'yon kadali, Paige. Dahil ba eight years na ang lumipas? Is that, it? Mabilis ba ang walong taon? Because for me...is not, Paige. I'll forever bring it to me. I lost my child, Paige...at masakit pa rin 'yon."

I give up! I let those stupid, selfish tears goes down. Ang hirap magpigil lalo na ito ang pinag-uusap. Hindi galit ang boses niyo, iisang tuno lang ito pero mas masakit pakinggan.

"E-evan...I'll be honest, I tried my best to move on for those years. I tried to be happy but...I'm still hurting, the guilt is still there. Again, I'm sorry kasi nagpabaya ako. I lost the baby..."

"Yes, I still blame you, Paige. Nothing changed over the years."

"Sorry, naging pabaya ako noon. Ang daming sana, Evan. Sana naging maingat ako, sana inalagaan ko ang sarili ko, sana nalaman ko agad, sana...malaki na siya ngayon. Same as as Samara, right? He or she can fight that little brat." I tried to hide my smil upon remembering the face of my sister. She's annoying and cute at the same time.

I saw his firm muscled arms gripped on the wheel. He's affected, I shouldn't dwell on it so much.

"Your thoughts gone too far, Paige. You're not the only one who's thinking those things. But, I refused to acknowledge those thoughts...especially from you." he said.