Born With My Idol

(Chapter 38) Sunrise

It's been hours since I have been staring at this wall but neither my brain nor my body seems to know it's functioning. I don't know how long it has been.

A knock on the door made my head turn it's way but I didn't say a word, I just sat there and looked at it.

"Minnie, can you please open the door or maybe just try eating? You have been in there since yesterday." It was Miyeon and she seemed both angry and concerned.

I didn't respond and heard rummaging from the door.

"Eonni, you know trapping yourself there won't do anything. I don't know what happened between you and Mira but you have to stop this. Please, Eonni." Now Yuqi was at the door, her tone was desperate rather than mad.

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"Now that I have seen your reaction, I proved my theory. It may be weird and I don't know how but I know you are Seulri."

I heard it loud and clear. There was no explanation needed.

"Nice to see you again, Han Seulri." I was there seeing the new intern call her by that girl's name.

"Nice to see you too, Hwang Chimlin." My mind went blank.

I couldn't process a thought so I just ran away. I grabbed the keys to the company car and drove off as fast as I can.

My heart was tightening and my body felt light. There was nothing in my head than just to simply go far away.

I finally reached a place where no one would find me. A park in Myeongdong-gu that is mostly empty.
It wasn't even cold but I felt chilly. The bench I was sitting on seemed like the only living space I could rest on.

So was it all a lie?

Who was I with all this time?

I closed my eyes to the question I can't even dare think about.

Who was I in love with?

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"Mira-yah, are you sure you want to stay here for a while?" Shuhua was looking around the place while I was preparing the pizza I was heating up.

I moved back to the place I used to rent.

I knew I couldn't change anything now.

"Yeah, I don't think I can face Eonnie yet." I said while turning the timer for the microwave.

"What ever it is you two are fighting about, you should talk it out. Minnie Eonni seems out of it while you're here hiding away." She said as she comes close and puts her hand on my shoulder, patting it lightly.

"And just to add, we're here for you, for both of you, so feel free to tell us if you feel comfortable."

I looked at her and smiled.

I just thought about running away. That's the initial thought but I guess a part of me wants to explain to her what's happening too. I heard she hasn't been eating nor is talking to anyone. I want to comfort her nor tell her I'm sorry but......