The first word that comes out of my mouth was. Fuck.
It was fucking disturbing to see how the room was arranged. The ornaments are odd that I can't explain how on earth would some people will like to see those things.
Halos masuka ako sa nakita.
"Can you fucking get out!" Sigaw ko sabay turo sa pinto kung hindi man sila makaka intindi ng ingles. May dalawang taong nadatnan kong nag lalagay ng mga kung anong alay sa paanan ng kanilang mistulang sinamba.
Putang'na ano to?!
They are all sick!
Dahil sa galit at ay pinag babasag ko ang mga larawang ginawang alala ng kahayupang ginawa sa sarili kong ina.
Nag sisigaw pa ako at sa kinalaunan ay pabagsak na napaluhod. I wiped my tears and sobbed furiously.
I thought I will be meeting her in the flesh pero ang nasa harapan ko ngayon ay ang naka preserve na bangkay nito. Kung may batang makaka kita ay maihahalintulad sa coffin ni snow white ay sigurong magagalak samahan mo na ng kung anong de klaseng mga bulaklak. Pero putang'na isang demonyo ang laman ng nasa harapan ko.
She's covered in a red satin sheet. Nilapitan ko ito at pinaka titigan. We have the same features. Animo'y na coma lang ito nang mahabang panahon at may mga umaasang magigising pa. How can they preserve her like she's still around her twenties?
I covered my mouth to prevent myself from cursing and breaking her glass coffin so she'll rot immediately.
"YOU RUINED MY MOTHER'S LIFE AND MINE! HOW DARE YOU DIE JUST LIKE THAT?!" I screamed not minding the surroundings. Alam kong may kung sino akong kasama na ngayon sa silid.
"IF YOU'RE IN HELL RIGHT NOW YOU FUCKING STAY THERE AND DON'T YOU EVER COME BACK RUINING US AGAIN! AND YOU FUCKING TELL YOUR SICK FAMILY TO STAY AWAY FROM US!" Patuloy kong sabi na na akala mo naman ay sasagutin ako nito.
"Wie kannst du es wagen, Kind!"
(How dare you child)
Hindi ko man maintindihan ang sinasabi ng mamang ito ay alam kong mura iyon dahil nangangalaiti ang tingin nito saken.
"And who the fuck are you?" Tanong ko nang maka lapit ito saken.
"How can you talk like that in front of your mother?" Matigas na sambit nito. Siguro ay kapatid niya ito. They look the same may katandaan nga lang ang isang to kung ikukumpara kay aunt Mia.
"You're disrespecting her. Did your parents raised you like that?" May pangungutya nitong sabi.
"Don't you mention my parents here. You don't know them." Napasalampak na lamang ako ng upo at binuksan ang bote ng alak na naka sulat naman sa Ingles ang mga nilalaman kaya tinunga ko na.
"Why are you here?" Tanong nito at umupo rin sa aking tabi.
"I asked you first." Balewalang tanong ko pabalik.
"I'm your father." Natawa ako at naibuga ang iniinom.
"Fuck this is so funny. Argg my nose. Damn it!" Lumabas kase sa ilong ko yung wine ang sakit tuloy. Napalingon ako dahil nag simulang humalakhak ang mamang weirdo. Tumigil ito ng tiningnan ko ito nang masama.
"I can't believe how you two got similar traits." Naalibadbaran naman ako dito. "I am not lying when I say that I'm your Vater,"
"Then, you're all fucking sick." I dismissed what he was about to say.
"I love my little sister so much that I can't say no to her. When she asked for my—..." Napaismid ako.
"You're fucking sperm?" Napaismid ako. "You're the fucking donor, smart." Siguro ay hindi nag tatagumpay ang ibang donors. Hindi naman pwedeng parehas nilang genes ang inimplanta nila kay mama.
Buti nalang at hindi nila ginawang mga hayop sila.
"Can you not—I am not asking you to tell me the crime she did!"
"Darling Ellen you have to listen to our side story. We knew that you already confronted your parents, isn't it time for you to listen to us?" Kahit matigas ito mag salita ay mahinahon naman ito.
"What do you want from me huh?"
"Isn't it enough that you ruined my mother's life? The shits you did to my family and to the Serranos?"
"Serrano?" Ulit na tanong nito.
"You fucking blackmailed my parents again! You and your family threatened to harm my woman!"
"We intend no harm Ellie, we just wanted you to get to know us, you're lineage to where you really come from."
"I AM FROM MY MOTHER!" I roared.
"We understand Ellen, I know you're heart broken after finding the truth."
"I FUCKING AM, ALL MY LIFE WAS A FUCKING LIE!" I said sobbing. I drank the bottle of wine up until it's half empty.
"You're mother has one last wish, we just wanted to fulfill it for her." Malungkot itong ngumiti saken.
"It's for you to bury her remains." Natahimik ako saglit sa sinabi nito.
"Before she died she wanted us to preserve her body and when the time comes no matter how long it will take, only her daughter could take her to her grave." The man started weeping.
"Can I ask why?"
"Because she is remorseful of what she has done." Paliwanag nito.
I don't quite get it still at naintindihan ata niyon kaya nag patuloy ito.
"Her soul will be free once you bury her. Cause it means that you finally get to visit her here and you have found out what happened."
"She only wants your forgiveness." The man sighed.
Forgiveness my ass.
"Your parents are not keeping their words. We spoke to them and made a promise that when you're 18 you'll be meeting Delfin and the clan but then your family disappeared. Our clan was angered by what they've done, you can't blame us."
"And the Serranos? The lawyer who put your members to jail!" I spat.
"Well, I admit that was a vengeful act. We don't intend to take lives."
"Bull. bullshit."
"Just because you have power?" I shake my head and angrily tossed the bottle I'm holding.
I was about to open another one pero hindi ko iyon mabuksan kaya inagaw nito saken at siya na mismo ang nag bukas.
"I am here now. I thought she's still alive so I can punch her." Ngumiti ito saken at hinawakan ang pisnge ko.
"Don't—
"It seems like she's back."
"Don't you fucking touch me without a permission." Matigas na sabi ko rito.
"We need the next leader. Your mother was bound to be the next one but she died, and you're the only one in her line."
"I don't care about your tradition. Spare me from it!"
"But Ellen you can't run away from the clan."
"What...what do you mean I can't?" Tuya ko rito.
"It's in your blood. You are ours."
"How about this?" Binasag ko ang bote aiming to cut my carotid artery.
Nagulantang naman ito sa aking ginawa.
"Don't do that darling, put that down please."
"No. This is the only thing that will set me free from all these sick fucking clan of yours."
"Mother! look at me!" I stood up and came closer to the glass coffin. I imagined my family, and Sere's smiles.
I guess this will be for the best.
I smiled upon feeling the oozing of my blood with each heart beat.
Agonizing screams are heard in the room that is slowly being swallowed by fire. I made sure to burn this room with me. Sa mga pag babasag ko ng mga bote kanina na hindi naman ata napansin ng isang to. The incense sticks lit them. The fire crawled instantly.
I am slowly loosing my consciousness.
"Ellen, fuck! Du verdammter Bastard!"
I smiled at Gayle's horrified look.
"I'm free." I uttered before succumbing into the dark oblivion.
