Like Minds - To my beloved Maraclea

Chapter 34 - I want you too

Nigel:

In truth, Nigel was actually very hard to please. But just like his mother, Alex was an exception to that rule. Nigel would be satisfied just being smiled or even smirked at. But anyone else fell out of that category. Alex had truly been his only friend ever, human friend at least, and even he wasn't exactly a simple friend like that. But this was not because Nigel felt insecure or had a low dignity. In contrary, it was his dignity that kept him from associating with people that he thought were lesser evolved in the brain than he was.

He cocked his head. He didn't doubt Alex had had a girlfriend. He could be quite charming after all, if he wanted to be. Susan Meuller was a living,..- no, not living, but still an example of that. So Nigel simply shrugged his shoulders.

"You loved her.. She loved you. That seems like a relationship to me."

And why wouldn't it be? Nigel didn't understand why people always needed it to be 'official', like love wouldn't count otherwise. Nigel didn't understand love, that didn't mean he read about it in books, and was taught that it was something that didn't need clarification.

Nigel looked down at Alex' shoe shoving over the ground, as if wondering what he did that for, but was soon pulled from the distraction when Alex told him to 'come here'. For a moment it confused him. He was here already, wasn't he? But he figured Alex just wanted him to come closer, so he just walked even closer until their faces were only an inch apart. "I'm here," he mumbled, brushing his hand over the fabric of Alex' collar to tidy it along his neck.

Alex:

I swallowed as I kept staring at the ground, nibbling on the inside of my lower lip as I narrowed my eyes thoughtfully. I wondered why Nigel never had friends or a girlfriend. In my opinion he was charming, maybe a little bit strange and creepy at the edges, but still. It was pretty impossible to have no friends at all, never - or well, he had me of course... But nobody else.

I clenched my teeth as he went on speaking, mentioning that Susan loved me. He couldn't know. Susan had talked to me, though, and had served me that beautiful magical smile sometimes, but she never really showed me any love. Only that day when I asked her out for a date, we really spoke - or well, we were seriously with only the two of us, although Nigel had hid himself somewhere behind the closet so he could eavesdrop us.

'No, that's not what it is, Nigel.'

I gazed up and smiled weakly. It was quite surprising how Nigel seemed to know really nothing about love.

'It's different. It doesn't really comes that easily.'

I licked my lips and hit my eyes to the ground again, sighing softly by thinking of Susan. I wondered where she was right now. Maybe she was with my mother, somewhere up there in heaven.

I pursed my lips lightly as my shoe shoved over the ground again, thinking of several blurry things now. As soon as I heard Nigel coming closer, I lightly gazed up - only at his knees though. I didn't wanted to face him right now, not yet. When he stood perfectly in front of me, I gazed up at the collar of his blouse when he brushed his hand over the fabric of my shirt. Still not daring to gaze him straight in the eyes.

'So I am practicably the first one that you've ever kissed?'

Nigel:

He frowned and kept staring at Alex' collar, just like Alex, as if fixed on straightening the collar even though it was already as neat as could be.

"What is it then" he asked, almost naïvely. "Why can't it be that easy?" He truly didn't understand why people had to do so difficult about it. "It's not that special, really.. Honestly I don't see what everyone makes such a fuzz about."