Grumpy meets Sunshine

Chapter 10

I think we were studying for a couple hours but I slightly looked up after our 5th chapter and saw him falling a sleep making em smile

I closed the books and grabbed the ones from his hand making his eyes open wide.

"Go sleep, it's fine. We can do more tom"

"I don't understand anything nandini" he said

"Don't panic" I said

"I am gonna fail" he siad

"You won't, ummm do you have practice tom" I asked

"No, it's on Friday"

"Cool, so tom after classes meet me in the basketball court"

"Why"

"So we can makeout" I said and raised an eyebrow at me

"To study obviously idiot, I have a new technique"

"Why are you doing this" he asked again

"Because you are my friend manik, whether you like it or not. I care and not because I want something but because we are human beings manik. We are supposed to care about people and I live with you. You know that navya and cabir are always together so that leaves you and I alone. Sure we can argue and be at each other's neck all the time but its so much better to become friends. I genuinely rely on you and you may not see this but when I get to chem class I look for you, bio, maths, physics. I look for you as soon as I step in because I know if I walk in there and end up passing out or something happens to me you will be there though you don't show it but I know you won't let anything bad happen to me" I told him exactly what I was thinking

He moved closer to me putting his hand on my cheek caressing very softly, I closed my eyes just feeling his touch, it calms me down.

"You are too good for this world nandini and you and I being close means you getting hurt" he said making me look in his eyes

There was a lot he wasn't saying, a lot he wanted to say but something was stopping him

"This life is too short to hurt yourself like you are" I said holding his hand that was caressing my face

"I can't be friends with you nandini" he said

"Please manik, not for you but for me, please" I whispered

His eyes were looking for something in my eyes as if asking for the truth or something.

"Please nandini don't do this to me" he whispered

I moved the books from my lap and moved closer to him, I put my head on his chest, his hand didn't even move from y face

"Manik"

"Baby you are breaking me and I can't afford to be broken" he whispered making shiver as the nickname he used

"Im not breaking you, im breaking the shell you have"

I could hear his heartbeat and I wish I could fall a sleep to his heartbeat every day, I wish I could hear his heart every time im sad.

"I can't nandini" he said taking a deep breath

I wasn't giving up on him, I never would but maybe he is right. In this moment he needs something else, he needs to understand im not doing this for anything in return.

I pulled back from his chest, grabbing my books I looked at him as he observed my actions

"It's okay"

A silence followed and it wasn't comfortable, I knew his head was racing wit many things but I needed him to think at what he is doing.

"Manik" we heard cabir