It's been two weeks after I rejected Miss Cardell's offer to drive me home. I chatted her that afternoon. Asking if she already was safely home yet there was no response.
In the university, I couldn't approach her. It feels like we have a big distance between us. But I let it be. It should be that way.
I've been also delaying the talk that June wants us to have. It's selfish of me to keep him from the talk that he needs kaya plano ko after our class in NSTP we are gonna talk.
"Rain, what are you thinking? Napakalalim." Ana inquired beside me. I just gave her a small smile at tumingin na muli sa harapan.
I can't understand myself also. I wanted to avoid Miss Cardell but the more I avoid her the more I'm craving to see her. Hindi na nga ako nakakatulog gabi-gabi. I was tempted to apologize to her for rejecting her offer.
"You go now guys, mag-uusap muna kami ni June." Pagpapauna ko sa mga kaklase ko. When all of them are out, I looked at June who is waiting for me inside the classroom.
"What do you want us to talk June?" I asked kahit alam ko naman saan ito patungo.
"You are confusing me Rain." He started, he looked at me, staring deeply in my eyes.
"In what way I did confuse you?"
"You flirted back to me. No, you started flirting with me." He sat down hopelessly.
"You know it was just a game right?" Alam naman naming yung flirting stages namin ay isang laro lang. My blockmates shipped us to be a couple and we did play the game. We were flirting for the first month of our class but I ended it since I felt like he was falling. I can't catch him so I ended it immediately.
"Let's stop the game. I already lost. I regret playing fire with you." Sadness envelopes his eyes. Hindi man siya umiiyak ngayon pero alam kong nasasaktan siya. It's my fault.
"June I'm sorry, I knew from the very start that you like me. That's why you flirted back. I just didn't expect that this will be serious. I'm sorry but I can't reciprocate your feelings right now." I hugged him, this is the only comfort I can give him. He hugged me back also.
"I'm willing to wait then when you can reciprocate my feelings. Because for the first time I'm willing to risk making our game a real one." A hint of determination was in his voice while saying those words.
"Don't wait for me June. Try to explore. May iba na akong nagugustuhan. Makakakita karin ng para iyo."
"Now we are being dramatic let's stop this already and go home." Kumuwala siya sa yakap ko kaya naman napatawa narin ako.
June is a matured man. He listens when I speak and he speak and I listen. Sa lahat ng narito sa classroom namin siya ang nakakaintindi ng lubusan sa akin.
Pinauna ko ng umuwi si June dahil may meeting pa ako together with my orgmates. Officer din kasi ako sa Mathematics and Statistics Student Society o mas kilalang MS³. We have a meeting for the upcoming teacher's day celebration. We will surprise the DMS faculty kaya naman pasekreto kaming nagmemeet.
Tatlong oras din ang tinagal ng meeting kaya hapon na ng nakalabas kami sa room na pinagmeetingan namin.
"Rain sabay ka sa amin?" Tanong ni Ehla kasama si Kuya Jan. Taga BS MATH sila at officer rin sa org.
"Nope, hindi ako sa Pacubas uuwi. Sa Ate ako pupunta." Pagtanggi ko sa alok nila. We usually hang out after school at sabay narin umuwi since isang ruta lang naman ang mga bahay namin.
"Okay see you when we see you." Tumango ako nagpaalam narin. Lumabas na ako ng gate para makapara ng taxi. Ilang minutong paghihintay ay hindi parin ako nakakapara palagi akong nauunahan.
BINABASA MO ANG
Intersected Lines
RomanceA part time instructor with a major in Math. A student that aims to be a statistician. They were intersected by their faith in theorems and love in data. Will they be able to use the theorems that they've known and data that have been gathered to...
