I woke up restlessly with my son in my arms. I didn't have a lot of sleep because I spent the night thinking of what Miss Calissa said. What does she mean that she only did that to save us from the future pain? When in fact I have been miserable since the day she left me. I have a lot of questions about the past but I chose to settle it with moving forward without the answer of it. Kaya ko ang walong taon na wala siya at kaya ko rin ito hanggang ngayon. I have live my life without her by my side. I know I can do this. Hinding-hindi na ako babalik sa kaniya. She hurt me. She left me.
"Good morning guys, wakey wakey." Energetic na saad ni Rach na mukhang kanina pa gising at kakabalik lang nito sa kwarto namin. I didn't even noticed that the other bed was empty since the first thing that occupied was the woman last night.
"Good morning." I said and kissed my son's forehead and shook him.
"Baby, wake up now." I gently caress his face and he giggled as he pique who was waking him up.
"Good morning, Mama." Malambing niyang sambit at bumangon narin.
"Fix yourself, love. We will have breakfast." I uttered and went to the bathroom to fix myself.
Pagkalabas ko ay presentable na sila ni Rach. Lumabas na kami sa room namin at pinuntahan ang restaurant. I opened the door and let them in first, when they entered I followed them from behind.
"Hi, professors." Napataas naman ang leeg ko dahil sa narinig kong sabi ni Rach sa unahan. Siya ang may hawak ng anak ko.
"Good morning, beautiful." I heard Miss Mary replied and when I went beside Rach Nakita ko ang maaliwalas na ngiti ni Miss Mary na ibinibigay niya kay Rach. When I faced the one beside her, I saw the woman who looked at me longingly.
"You'll have breakfast?" Miss Mary asked and we nodded.
"That's good, we will be having breakfast too. Join us in our table." Kokontra sana ako pero umupo agad si Rach sa tabi ni Miss Mary at pinaupo ni Rach si Cali sa kanan niya kaya umupo na lang ako sa kanan ni Cali kaya nasa kanan ko si Miss Calissa, since it is a round table.
"So, this is your son, Rain?" Miss Mary asked and I smiled at her before facing my son who is currently watching us quietly.
"Baby Cal, introduce yourself to them." I said and he nodded before facing my former professors.
"Good morning Madammes, I am Cali Sun Fuentes." Tipid itong ngumiti sa kanila. I saw how happy Miss Mary was while Miss Calissa have a questioning look.
"Where is his father?" Mukhang hindi na napigilan ni Miss Calissa na itanong iyon dahil napahawak na lamang siya sa bibig niya.
"Ay yun ba maam, lumayo at ayaw ng anak. Iniwan ang mag-ina niyang luhaan." Napailing-iling na sambit ni Rach habang nakatingin sa anak ko.
"You raised this boy alone?" Shock was evident in Miss Mary's voice and I nodded. Hindi naman mahirap alagaan ang anak ko. Napakamasunurin nito at hindi iyakin.
"Siya lang Maam. Naalala ko pa trabaho at bahay lang siya noon dahil focus talaga siya sa pag-aalaga kay Cali. Ngayon nga lang ito lumalabas kapag sinabi ng anak niya." Oversharing ni Rach. Sila lang ang nag-uusap ni Miss Mary habang kami ni Miss Calissa kahit magkatabi ay parang hindi namin iniintindi ang isa't-isa at ang anak ko naman ay naglalaro sa dala niyang sasakyan.
That's what I thought but suddenly I felt a hand in my thigh kaya nilingon ko ang may-ari nito. I looked at her with a questioning expression but she gave me a cold look that I couldn't decipher.
"What are you doing, Miss?" Bulong ko sa kaniya para hindi marinig ng iba pa naming kasama.
"What?" Maang-maangan niyang tanong kaya naman kinuha ko ang kamay niya pero bago ko pa maihawi ito ay kinuha niya ito at pinagsiklop niya ang aming mga kamay.
"Anong ginagawa mo?" Nanggigil kong tanong sa kaniya habang binabawi ang kamay ko na ayaw niya talagang pakawalan.
"You are single, huh?" She amusingly said and I shook my head in disbelief to what she said.
"What is it with you?" Nanghahamon ko siyang tinignan at nginisihan lang ako nito.
"Pwedeng mag-apply?"
"Nang ano?" Naiirita kong tanong.
"Maging mommy ng anak mo?" Wala naman akong iniinom pero nabulunan ako sa sarili kong laway. Kaya tatawa-tawa niya akong tinignan. Then my world stops for two seconds seeing her laughing. Her laugh is still the best melody that I ever heard.
"Hindi pwede, hiring kami ng daddy hindi mommy." I smirked at her when she stopped laughing when I said those words. Sumimangot naman ito. Hindi niya na ako makukuha pa kahit anong ganda niya pa hinding-hindi na muli akong babalik sa kaniya.
"Why did the father of your child leave?" She asked in a serious tone while looking at me and my son.
"It's none of your business." Mataray kong sagot pero tinaas lang niya ang isang kilay niya.
"Of course it is my business. He left you and prolly broke your heart too." Ani niya pero mas lalo lang akong napangisi dahil sa sinabi niya.
"Oh, that's what you did to me right?" I asked and that made her stun hindi na muli kaming nag-usap dahil dumating na ang aming pagkain at agad kong inasikaso ang anak ko.
Ang kapal niyang sabihin iyon kung siya rin naman ang gumawa noon sa akin. I hate her. I hate er so much for making me feel this way.
"Are you okay, Mama?" My son asked when he swam towards me. I gave him a small smile, so he won't worry about me.
"Yes baby, I am." I flashed a bigger smile to convince him but he still looked unconvince, so I sighed and caress his cheek.
"Mama is just sad, baby." I softly said and that made his face soften.
"Is it because of that lady a while ago Mama?" He asked and my eyes went big. My son is smart but I didn't know that he could be this observant.
"How come you say that, anak?"
"Well, you look at her differently. You look at her like you are so angry at her but when she's not looking you kept on staring at her like how you stare at me." Inosenteng sabi ng anak ko kaya napalunok na lang ako. Indeed what he said was true but my emotions are not here to make my decisions. Dahil kung puso ko pa ang papairalin ko alam kong noong unang pagkikita namin muli ay nakuha niya rin ako agad.
"We have a painful past, love." I smiled bitterly to my son. He raised his hand and touched my face.
"Mama, will you give her a chance to explain so maybe that booboo you are feeling will go away? Like how you make communicate with me when I get upset with you." At his young age I really taught him how communication and comprehension are important in a relationship. I smiled at him because of what he said. I am proud of my son for growing up like this.
"Yes baby, soon, when Mama has the courage." I kissed his temple and hugged him tightly.
Sawi man ako sa pag-ibig but I am very thankful that Cali Sun came into my life and change me for good. He is the best gift I could ever ask for. A life saver. My life. My saviour.
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Intersected Lines
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