After the kiss we shared ay umuwi na agad kami. Tahimik lang akong nakahiga ngayon sa kwarto ko habang katabi siya. I think she's sleeping already. Nakatalikod ito kaya hindi ko alam.
I put my fingers in my lips. It feels like her lips are imprinted to it already. We didn't talk after that kiss kaya kahit marami akong gustong itanong sa kaniya, I choose to stay silent. Maybe right now isn't a good time. Baka na overwhelm lang kami sa pangyayari.
I don't want to pressure her also. I want her to see my scars first before letting her be paart of my life. This will save us from being hurt. I don't want to cause pain of her. The way she said she was afraid of the future because it might hurt her. That moment I know that we will surely get hurt if we will be together. But I'm willing to take the risk. I'm willing to love her through pain and happiness.
Because I now realize also that I'm falling. Falling deeper and faster that I know no one can save me now. Not even myself.
"Good morning." Bati ko ng magising ito. Kakagaling ko lang sa opisina ng papa ko. We've talked a lot and he also asked about Miss Cardell's presence. I told him the truth that I was pursuing her. He did not like that but refused to say something. He also scolded me sa pagpuslit ko ng sasakyan.
"Morning." Maikling sambit niya at dumiretso sa banyo.
When she came back nakatali na ang mahaba niyang buhok. She looks more presentable now.
"Let's go. We will go to the beach and spend the night there. Dalhin mo na lahat ng gamit mo." I said and she followed it. Wala na akong balak bumalik dito for the meantime. Mainit pa ang dugo nila sa akin kaya mas mabuting umiwas na muna ako sa kanila.
Hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman niya para sa akin. I'm afraid to ask because I might hear an answer that will break me. But she initiated the kiss right? So maybe, maybe she feels the same way too? But I don't want to assume. Everything is happening too fast. Bawal din akong magjowa sabi ng mga Tita at Tito ko sa side ni Papa. They don't want me to be distracted in my studies. Ayoko ng dagdagan pa ang galit nila sa akin baka kunin talaga yung apartment ko. Napagkasunduan narin namin ni Papa na kapag dean's lister ako this sem ay ibabalik niya ang mga cards ko. Which I am very confident that I can do. Hindi ako sobrang matalino pero I can study hard naman talaga when I have a goal to achieve.
Natatakot din ako sa posibleng mangyari. Sa posibleng maging dulot sa mga desisyon ko. I'm not afraid for myself but I'm afraid that Calissa will be hurt by my decisions too. I'm afraid to share my pain with her. She's too fragile for the world's cruelty. Masasaktan ko siya. Pero gusto ko rin maging masaya. At nakikita ko ang sarili ko na masaya sa piling niya.
Life is too short, I can't deprive myself again the happiness that it deserve. Mahal ko na yata siya.
"You are thinking too deep there." Ani niya at humilig sa balikat ko. We are inside of a tricycle. Nasa kabilang baranggay pa lang kasi ang beach na pupuntahan namin.
"I'm sorry last night. Hindi pala tayo nakapagdinner." Kakamot-kamot ako sa leeg ko. I did forgot na wala pala kaming kain buti nalang kumain kami sa 3K's noong hapon kaya hindi masiyadong gutom.
"Let's eat our breakfast doon na sa beach." Dagdag ko pa.
"Yes, hindi pa naman ako gutom. It's nice na makalanghap ng fresh air again. I want to live in a province." She's staring at the road. Yung baby hair niya ay nililipad din ng hangin.
"Noon, I wanted to stay here but everything's toxic kaya I wish to live where there is less toxicity. Mas maganda parin na hindi lang ang palagid ang walang toxic pati narin ang kasama mo."
"Do you find your circle right now a not toxic one? I meant your block." Napaisip naman ako sa tanong niya. I smiled remembering our stupid antics. Lahat kami ay nagkakasundo kapag may mga kalokohan kaming pinaplano. We accepted each other's difference too, hindi ito naging problema sa amin.
"I'm happy with them. They accepted me for what I am. Hindi lang ako kundi tanggap namin ang lahat. They respect boundaries also. I think my answer is yes."
"They are cool to be with." Pagsang-ayon niya at may ngiti sa labing tumango.
Nakarating na kami sa Beach Resort. I already booked a room here. Sinalubong kaagad kami ng trabahante dito and guided us to where our room is.
"This is beautiful." Namamanghang saad niya ng makapasok kami. Nasa second floor kami at kita ang dagat dito. May pool naman pero the thing that makes relaxing here is the crystal clear water of the sea and the fine sands.
Kumain muna kami bago nagpalit ng damit pangligo. She's busy taking pictures of the scenery habang busy naman ako kakapicture din sa kaniya. She's smiling while clicking my camera. Ngayon ko lang siyang nakitang ganito ngumiti.
We spend the whole morning and afternoon sa pagligo. Ngayon ay papalubog na ang araw ay naisipan kong yayain siyang manood ng paglubog nito dahil kakatapos lang din namin na magshower at nandito na kami sa room namin.
"Miss, can we watch the sunset together right now?" I asked kaya napatigil siya sa pagcellphone niya. We are here sa room namin para magpahinga muna before having a dinner.
"Let's go." Bumangon siya sa pagkahiga kaya naman tumayo narin ako.
Hand in hand kaming naglalakad patungong dalampasigan. We stopped in a spot na maganda ang pwesto para pagmasdan ang araw.
I hugged her in the back and she immediately relaxes in my arms.
It's now or never.
"Promise me Miss you won't interrupt me." Pauna kong sabi naguguluhan niya naman akong tiningala.
"The very first time I laid my eyes on you, I know you will be a danger to me. I stopped myself for liking you. Pero grabe kamandag mo Miss, you did not only caught my attention but also my heart. I'm afraid to pursue this at first dahil wala naman akong pag-asa sa iyo. You are too far to reach even tho you are too near to me. I like you Miss. I like you so much and if ever you don't feel the same way towards me please don't lead me on so that I can start moving on." I said and she turn around and cupped my face.
"Pinapangunahan mo na agad ang lahat. No one is moving on Cyril. I like you too." We stared at each others eyes. She has the same expression as mine.
"Do you mean that Miss?" I'm overwhelmed with happiness right now.
"I don't want to repeat myself again Fuentes." Inirapan niya ako pero may ngiti ito sa labi. Humarap muli siya sa dagat at kalahati na lamang ng araw ang natatanaw.
"I loving hugging you like this." Hinigpitan ko ang pagyakap sa kaniya.
"I love being hugged by you." She put her hands in my arms.
"I've read a book and it said that when you hugged someone from the back it means that even if they will not reciprocate anything still you will be there. Because you never stayed just because you wanted to be reciprocated, you stayed because you want them to feel that you cared for them. That's why I hugged you in the back while confessing. Because whether you like me or not ma'am that won't stop me from liking you." I emotionally said. I can feel that she smiled as she look at the sunset. I turned around to face her. I stared at her eyes. I can see the reflection of the sunset in her eyes. The best sunset I ever witnessed.
I hope our exponential growth will approach to positive infinity. Because starting from now I am committing my whole self to her.
BINABASA MO ANG
Intersected Lines
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