Nakatulog na si Miss Cardell sa tabi ko. Tabi kaming natutulog dahil wala naman akong ibang kama na maaari niyang tulugan. What she said earlier buffled me. She denied being engage when clearly she is wearing a heirloom ring in her finger. Tinanong ko siya kanina what does she meant by it pero may tumawag sa kaniya kaya hindi niya ito nasagut at nang matapos ang pag-uusap niya sa kaniyang telepono ay hindi na muling nabuksan ang pag-uusap na iyon.
I shifted my body towards her direction. She is facing me while asleep. She has the most beautiful and peaceful face I ever seen. Ang ganda niya at ang taas pa ng pilik mata niya. No wonder I fell in love with this woman beside. She is the only person who can excite, hurt and comfort my heart at the same time.
Pero bakit sa kung kailan ako hulog na hulog na sa kaniya ay yun pa ang oras na kailangan ko siyang bitawan dahil may nagmamay-ari na sa kaniya. Napabuntong-hininga ako sa iniisip ko. I raised my had to reach her cheeks and gently caressed it.
"I would love to take care of you till the last remaining of my breath but too bad you are meant for someone else already." I whispered in the air and a lone tear escaped my right eye. Mahal ko na nga talaga siya. Tumalikod na ako sa kaniya habang iniinda ang mga pasa ko. Kita ko naman ang balcony rito na may tumutulong tubig. Umuuwan na naman.
Tumayo ako at binuksan ang balcony matapos ay lumabas ako at isinara ito. Magpapaulan ako.
This is my therapy ever since I was kid. To clear my mind off about something I tend to wet my head. And this rain comes in the perfect time. I need to clear my head right now or I will lose my sanity over this woman who keeps on messing my mind lately.
The drops of rain came in contact with my body. Nagtaasan narin ang balahibo ko sa batok at braso dahil sa lamig ng simoy nang hangin. Ninamnam ko ito at pumikit ako. Kailan pa ba ako magiging masaya? I've tried to be kind to everyone. I tried to do less harm to every creature but why does my life is messed up?
Naramdaman kong may mainit na likidong lumabas sa mga mata ko. This is why I love bathing myself in the rain, it wouldn't be obvious that I am crying. Hindi ko na napigilan ang matinding sakit sa puso ko, next thing I knew a sob escaped my mouth. I covered it using my right hand while my other hand was holding to the railings for support. Because anytime soon I might collapsed in the ground.
"You don't have to cover your mouth when crying." Her voice filled my ears kahit hindi ko man lingunin ay alam kong siya iyon. Ang babaeng isa sa dahilan ng kalungkutan ko. I stopped crying but I never faced her. Ayokong makita niya ang pagmumukha ko na umiiyak sa ilalim nang ulan. Nakakahiya.
It stunned me what she did next. She wrapped her slim arms in my waist. Hugging me from behind.
"Just cry, let it out." Mahina niyang bulong sa tenga ko. Pero hindi na muling tumulo ang mga luha ko. Tila tinuyo ito ng kaniyang boses kanina. Bakit ba ganito ang nararamdaman ko para sa isang babae? How can she cure my aching heart just by her voice and presence?
"Why are you doing this?" I asked after a couple of minutes in our position. Basa narin kaming dalawa pero tila wala itong planong pumasok sa loob.
"I don't know either." She whispered and her hot breath were directed into my ear. I relaxed my body and put my weight in hers.
"I really like you Miss Cardell, that it keeps on hurting me." I said truthfully while my gaze where in nowhere. Nakatulala lang ako sa kung saan. I felt her hand in my chest.
"How can I stop hurting you baby?" She asked the obvious. I laughed humorously and shook my head a little.
"Maybe part of adoring you is hurting myself." I said in the thin air. Naramdaman ko naman ang paghigpit ng yakap niya sa akin. I even felt her lips in my temple. Trying to console me.
"Will you still adore me even if it means you'll be hurt?" She asked in a low tone. I smiled bitterly.
"No amount of pain can ever stop me from adoring you, Miss Cardell. I cannot command my heart to stop beating for you just because it hurts." I replied with a small smile in my lips. How can I stopped adoring her when I already submitted myself to her since the day her lips landed into mine?
"I'm not engage Cy." Umiiling lang ako at hinawakan ang daliri niya na may singsing doon. Maybe she got what I meant since she put a hand over my hand which is on top of her other hand.
"It was all for a show. Mark and I were and will never be engage. He's gay and he still don't know how to come out in his family. And they are pressuring him to get married that's why I helped him. He is my bestfriend and Mary's brother." Napalingon naman ako sa kaniya dahil sa huli niyang sinabi.
"He is Miss Mary's brother? Hindi sila magkamukha. No resemblance at all." Ani ko naman, napatawa ito ng mahina.
"Not all siblings have resemblance Cy."
"But I saw you and him in a room. You called him Hon so I assumed that the rumors were true." Napapahiya kong sabi at yumuko. She raised my head using her index finger that's on my chin.
"That's our call sign. You have your call sign with your friends too. Especially Uno you call her love right?" Tumango naman ako sa sinabi niya. Magkaharap na kami ngayon at madilim din ang paligid pero masisilayan parin ang kagandahan niya dahil sa malapit na streetlight sa building namin.
"So it's not illegal now to like you?" I whispered that only her can hear it. She gently nodded with a smile.
"Yes, and even if it is illegal please still do so. So we both will be guilty for liking each other illegaly." Natatawa niyang saad kaya napatawa narin ako.
"The phone call I received this afternoon, it was Mark. He was telling me that we will be having a family dinner with his family next week and he's planning to tell them the truth in that time. And kanina ko lang din hiningi ang permiso niya kung maaari ko bang sabihin sayo ang plano namin dahil hindi ko na kakayanin na saktan ka pa dahil lang sa maling akala." Paliwanag niya at napangiti naman ako roon. Gosh how can this woman be real? She is making me fall more.
"So please don't give me a cold shoulder again, hindi ko kakayanin that you are near yet still far away." She is now caressing my cheeks kaya naman napapikit na lang ako. Naramdaman ko rin ang mainit niyang hininga sa cheeks ko indicating that her face is near mine kaya minulat ko ang aking mga mata at sinalubong ka agad ito ng mga mapupungay niyang mga mata.
"I am dying to kiss you again Cy, can I?" Paghingi niya ng permiso pero hindi na ako sumagot at kinabig ko na lang ang batok niya para mapalapit ang labi niya sa labi ko.
When our lips touched each other, tila tumahimik ang buong kapaligiran. I can taste the saltiness of the rain in her lips as she savored mine. Walang pagmamadali niya akong hinalikan. Ingat-ingat ito sa bawat pagalaw ng mga labi niya. She wrapped her right arms in my waist as her left hand were in my neck.
I reciprocated her energy, I kissed her back with the same intensity. Why does this feels so magical? Why do I feel like the time stopped that the only thing that matters right now is our loudly beating hearts?
Tumigil ito sa paghalik ko kaya minulat ko ang aking mga mata para tignan ito. She has a smile plastered in her lips as she traced my swollen lips that is still wet with her saliva. Pinagdikit niya ang aming noo.
"Thank you for coming into my life Cy. Thank you for sharing your colors. Can you share it with me forever?"
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