A Fairytale Ending: A Christina Grimmie & Bobby Plizak Fanfiction (trilogy)

Chapter 21

The tension in our house was so high you could cut it with a knife. All day, Bobby and I barely talked. We pretended we were just preoccupied with the boys, but Bobby was very angry with me. He'd never admit it; he never liked saying he was mad at me, but it was obvious he was getting more upset with me the more the day went on.

It was a blessing we made it through the day without breaking out in a huge fight, but I guess it had to do with the fact that we agreed we didn't want to fight in front of our kids. It would inevitably happen sometime, I'm sure, but we decided long ago we didn't want it to.

"I guess I'll sleep on the couch again," Bobby mumbled as he went to our room to get his pajamas.

"No, Bobby," I said, following him. "Can we talk about this?"

"I don't know," he said.

"Bobby, c'mon," I pleaded.

"What is there to talk about? Other than the fact that you completely flipped out on me last night right after I thought we'd all had a perfect Valentine's Day. I hadn't heard a complaint all night until we got home and you refused to go into detail on why you were so angry and then forced me onto the couch."

Pros to not fighting all day: the boys didn't have to see it.

Cons: Not only had tension been high all day, but now we had everything all bottled up and it would all burst in a huge fight.

"I'm sorry," I said. "I was tired and moody and I regret it."

"Does that help anything? Or is it just an excuse?"

"I don't know what else to say."

"You could tell me what the hell happened last night," he said angrily.

"I just... was jealous. I can't ever make simple plans without something going wrong and you can make elaborate, fancy, romantic plans with the boys like last night and everything goes perfectly," I said.

"We both know that isn't true."

"Well, maybe you do, but to me it is true," I replied.

"Last night was a miracle. You thought I expected it to work out fine? Because I totally didn't. Besides, you plan a lot of things that go well. Anything from simple things to award shows, there've been some straight up miracles with you, too."

"It doesn't seem like it," I muttered.

"Maybe you haven't taken note of when it happens."

"I'm sorry about last night," I said.

"Why wouldn't you let me talk to you? Why didn't you tell me you felt like this?" he asked.

"Because it's embarrassing. And I didn't feel like going into detail on how much better you are at parenting."

He laughed. "As if."

"I'm not a good mom. I have my moments, but seriously, I can't even take one of the boys out to the park without attracting a bunch of people with cameras. I don't think I'm very good at playing trucks, I'm always the one who makes them clean up their toys, and I haven't gone out on a day with one of them since Ness wasn't even here."

"You're a wonderful mom," he said. "You haven't seen how Ness acts around you. You're practically his best friend. He adores you. Lucas does too, he just has to be a boy and be with me because I'm Dad, and Dad's always the cool one. And I think they like the attention the get in public. I'm the one who sucks at parenting."

I scoffed.

"I do! I rarely ever take care of Ness without him crying harder than before, and I can't ever get the thing to make him happy. Lucas only likes me because I can play trucks and I'm Daddy, and I explained that before. I don't even know how I'm gonna handle another little one because I'm already starting to fail with the two we have now."

"You're the perfect dad, Bobby! Lucas looks up to you like you're a superhero and Ness wishes he could be around you as often as Lucas, but he doesn't wanna start a fight with him. You're the reason I'm so self-conscious about my parenting. I don't know how I'm gonna handle having another little one because I can't handle the two we have now!" I replied.

He rolled his eyes. "You're such a liar. You're the best mother I've ever seen."

"And you're the best father I've ever seen," I replied quietly. "I'm sorry about last night. I just can't deal with how things always work out for your plans but not for mine."

He kissed me lightly.

"You're perfect, my dear."

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{REMINDER that in the series of books I'm writing, Christina never went on The Voice. She never met Bria or Tess, and she never was on Adam's team.}

Today I was writing with Adam Levine. Not because I needed music to sing, but because Maroon 5 was currently working on an album.

The original plan was to just write and see what came, what we had planned and what we could add to. But as we wrote more, Adam asked if I wanted to do back-up vocals.

"Oh," I answered, surprised. "Yeah. Sure."

"Good," he said. "Your voice would really suit this song and pull it all together I think. But maybe we should finish writing it."

"Yeah," I agreed, humming the melody we had and trying to find lyrics that would fit it.

I was blurting out random lines to the melody and I didn't even necessarily know what I was singing.

"Yes, Christina! That's it, that's perfect!" he said excitedly and started writing down whatever I'd sang. "Wow, that was a really good line. It can be taken two different ways, you know? Really passionate or else just kind of in the brain of someone else. Like someone else's conscious," he continued.

It was as he was saying that that I noticed we were pulling closer together. Our lips were then on each other's, even though we were both married to other people and I was pregnant.

I didn't stop it, that was the worst part. I kissed him back, allowing his tongue to play in my mouth because Bobby hadn't done anything like this for months. It was once Adam's hands landed on my waist that I pulled away.

A guy can do a lot from the waist, I reminded myself as usual.

"Um..." I said, fidgeting my fingers and looking down.

"I'm sorry," Adam said. "Damn, that was stupid. We don't need to tell, right? It was a slip up, no big deal."

I nodded in agreement. "Right. No one needs to know. It'll just stay between us."

"Okay," he said with a deep breath.

"I'll just be going," I said as it was very awkward after that.

"Ah-Alright," he said, allowing me to go.

I rushed home and wondered what I was gonna do. It was a slip-up, Adam said. But I'd never had a slip-up. I didn't want to have a slip-up. I loved Bobby. I couldn't have made such a stupid mistake, right?

"You're home earlier than I expected," Bobby said.

I was about to say we finished quicker than I expected when my phone buzzed.

We never finished that song. It was from Adam. Tomorrow morning? 11:00?

I couldn't say no. I did have to finish the song, or else Brian would ask why I couldn't write with him and the drama would be brought to the surface.

"Adam had to go out for some management thing. We're finishing tomorrow morning. Is that okay?"

"Of course," Bobby said and kissed my cheek.

Tomorrow at 11 I replied.

"How is writing with Adam? He isn't putting the charm on you or anything, right? I don't have any competition?" Bobby asked jokingly.

I didn't have time to answer as Lucas started crying, saying Ness bit him.

I don't have any competition? Bobby's question flowed through my mind throughout the rest of the day.

I sure hope you don't, I thought to myself.