The One

Part 17 - Hate me

Bright pov.

He reallly hate me, i need to go home and not being his burden. I cant believe win left me here. I try to ask help from p bible but he is in tough situation. I know why , so i dont push him. Leave us alone,  that stupid p mile come back and take the podridge from p bible. I just sit silently and try my best to ignore him. He pull the chair and sit front of me. I keep looking down to avoid his eyes. Can we eat now love, he ask softly. I look at him and wonder if i heard it wrong. Please eat love,  he said again. What is wrong with him, why he call me love, is he also sick, i look at his eyes with question look. He look so sad and tired. I felt a bit guity. Please eat baby, he said again. I dont want, i want to go home, i wont be your burden, i reply without breathing. I want he know that he hurt me very much. He close his eyes then look at me with red eyes. You will never be my burden, i will never hate you, you can hate me all you want but please eat now,  you need your medicine, he patiently talk to me. Without leaving his eyes i said you are lying, you said you are not win so i cannot act like spoil child, you hate me, you leave me with p bible imediately when he come to see me, you just hate me. I try hard not to cry, i quickly wipe my teary eyes. Its not the first time people talk to me like that, but when the word come from p mile it  hurt so much. He put the bowl down, sit beside me and hold my hand. I'm sorry, can you forgive your p, he ask and pull me into his arms. I dont know why but i start crying. He pat my back and keep saying sorry. Again after i calm down he look at my eyes and said, p is sorry,  p wont say that again, p promise not to leave you ,you can be spoiled as much as you want, he teasing me and i can felt that i am blushing. P, i push him and lean at the pillow. P , i am hungry, i said. He smile and start feeding me. After a few spoon i close my mouth and he look at me questioning my behaviour. P also need to eat , i said. After you he said. I smile and open my mouth. After that we share a bowl of poridge. After i have my medicine i felt sleepy but i cant sleep. I miss my mom and win. Then i see p mile sitting on the couch to accompany me. I walk to him with a blanket and stand in front if him. What wrong bright,  he ask then close his file. I want to sleep , i said and lay on his lap and hug his waist. After that i fall asleep. I felt like floating but i felt safe, so I keep sleeping. The truth is  p mile pick me up and bring me to the bed then put my head on his chest.

Apo Pov

I can believed what i see. I'm so proud of my boss. His love of his life are in his arms now. I snap a few picture, I know he will thanks me later. As his good bestfriend i'm so proud of myself after I check the picture. Then after that i go down and inform the others to eat first. No need to wait for love birds. I show the picture to others and all of us so happy for our boss. Look like he is not fully loser, bible said and kiss  pete out of excitement. All of us have our lunch in a good mood. So the prince will get his prince. I some how sad for win, but we know about love, its not something you can predict or plan. If they are destiny to be together, bright will love him since earlier. they will be together since forever. Bright really treat him like brother, based on my investigation, bright is very reserve and ackward with new people but he can mix with us like immediately and act extremely spoil with mile. I know win can feel it, that why he leave bright here today. He always act like bright guardian and give what bright want the most. Its really sad. For his love one happiness, he can hurt himself. I really hope win can find his true love soon. Sometime become on screen partner make us felt special like me and mile. We share some sentiment that only us know. Thats why my love always jelous of mile. I kiss my love head and he look at me weirdly. I love u i said. He just smile and shyly reply love you too. Get a room you two bible the trouble maker interupt our sweet moment.

Win Pov

My heart hurt so much.
So this is the reason. P mile love bright.
I cant hate or angry at him because bright never belong to me. To him i'm his best friend , best brother and a family. I cant focus on my shooting. Are you ok win ,the director ask me. I'm not feeling well p, i  lied. I think we should stop here today the director said. It was 2 hours ago. Before this i will running to bright when i'm free or when he sick.
But now i'm here at my room feeling sad and hurting. I need energy to face bright and mile. I know he like mile without caucious. I just know him too much. some time i hope i wont understand him to this extent. I know he is waiting for me. He has been calling me since 5 pm. now its 10 pm. I take a shower and ready to face the reality.
I walk into mile house and see all his gang was there include bright. He sit sadly beside p jeff. Mile like always just look at him lovingly.
He is the first one who realize my present. He look a lot better. Win, he scream and run to me. How could you leave me here, you dont love me right, what if i was sold in black market , he dramaticly scold me. I just smile and caress his hair. How are you now, i ask him. Now you worried about me , he still sulky but still pulling me and sit beside me. He genuinely love me as a brother. I can see how mile flinch when he hug and pull me. I just smile and listen to his ranting. For the first time i leave him like this. He always my priority. He really sulky and angry but at the same time he miss me. Can we go home now win, he ask. Can you stay here for a few more days, wait till the bruise in your face disappear, mom gonna be worried. I reply to him. I already inform p toey u have a fever and all your schedule on hold. I show him our comp annoucement. So you cannot come with me, i said. Can you stay with me , he ask hopefully. yeah but only for tonite,  Tomorrow i have shooting at phuket. I slowly reply to him. He nodd because he know my schedule. While mile just look at bright and say nothing. I need to talk with you alone suddenly he whisper to me. I know the reality  is coming. I just smile and caress his hair. ok, When ever you want, i said. Can you sleep with me tonight, i dont have the fever anymore, he convincing me. I just smile look at phi mile coughing. He need to accept this, he is my forever brother. No one can question and challenge that. My heart felt a bit lighter when i accept him as a brother. I force my self to accept the reality. Mile keep coughing and this stupid brat ask him worriedly. Are you ok p mile. P mile just shake his head and keep coughing. All his friend hide their smile. The culprit act like he do nothing and so oblivious. After a small talk, Bright cant wait anymore. Bye everyone, we need to sleep now, he said and pull me from sofa and push me to his room. I can see p mile black face.
After few second i can hear a big laugh from the hall. They must be laughing at p mile. But the brat keep pushing me and ignore the others since he have big pand  heavy problem from his perspective. Win i feel weird ,he said. What if i like a boy, he ask. Why, I ask him back. I dont angry and hate when a boy hug and kiss my head, he said.  But i always hug and kiss you, i said. Not that kiss, i never felt weird when you kiss me,i'm talking about p mile. It give me safe feeling when he hug and i felt butterfly when he kiss me, he explain he feeling. Win do you think i am weird, what if i become a real gay, he ask me confusely. I take deep breath and slowly response to his question. Just like you always said, love is love, it have no gender. I also happy when he call me love, i felt weirdly  happy. Win do i fall in love with him , he ask me again. I  smile and sofly reply i think you are. But i never fall for a guy before, i'm scared, i dont even fall for a cute guy like you, he said to my face. I can only smile ackwardly. You know what its mean right , i ask him. He quickly shake his head. There is no way you will be the alpha for p mile. His alpha aura are too strong, i said. His eyes become wider and look scared. You mean, he cannot finish his word. Yes you are , i said. With p mile you will never be the alpha, even with me i honestly told him. His eyes become wider. You are scaring me. he push me and get under the blanket. The reality must hit him hard. Serve you right, i said and caress his hair. Just sleep we will talk again tomorrow. I swicth off the lamp and wait for few moment. When i heard his soft snoring, I walk to p mile in the garden. He just rolled his eyes and push a beer to me. We have a very quiet drink. I'm sorry, he suddenly said. I look at him, i love him since 3 years ago, he confess to me. I just look and waiting for him since than , p mile said. He have a girlfriend 3 years ago , i said. I know ,but i cant do anything, he just 20 years old that time. I fall in love and i cant forget him since i saw him. At first seing him from far are enough for me, but i become greedy and worried when he breakup with his girlfriend. I enter this industries to be close with him, to protect him, i cant remember how many time i run to him to ensure he is safe when you are not around. I know you always protect him without his knowledge. That why i cant hate you for real, p mile calmly tell me his story.  I silently listen to him. So he is the angel who always protect bright. That why bright alway thank me even i'm not the one who help him. When i listen to his story, i know he love that brat more than i do. I just realize my feeling within this year. Maybe due to presure by our fans. Or maybe we are so used to each other. Both of us have a bonding that no one can have. Even we are not good in Fan service, the fans still can felt how much we care for each other. I think it show and can be felt by fans. It a bit relieve when i know how much p mile love him. Please dont hurt him p,  he still confuse but i know he love you, i said. P mile look at me tenderly, i'm sorry win , i cant control my heart, i know you love him. he sincerly said sorry. I just nodd my head. I promise to love him all my life, i will protect him like how you do, i will give him all he want but unfortunately i need to hurt him and you know why he said blantly. P, i scream. Stop there, i said. He just laugh and caress my hair. I hope you find the right one soon, he said sincerely and leave me alone. I can feel his honesty and feel a lot better after our talk. This is your last chance to sleep with him he add before leave me alone. Crazy bastard. so posessive, will see p mile, i said annoyingly. Before i sleep i snap bright sleeping figure and post at my ig story with caption sleeping beauty. Then i leave it  to fans imagination. I am not win if i dont do this. I need p mile suffer a bit. The twitter and media become crazy. P mile call me non stop. I just ignore his call and sleep happily beside the most popular star who i love but not belong to me. I am happy for what we have. And i cant even think to put him in tough situation. I will bring my heart secret to my last breath. I will always beside him no matter what as his  brother and family. It gonna hurt me but his happiness are always my priority. I will learn to be happy.