The One

Part 36 - Unfamiliar room

Bright pov

I open my eyes in unfamiliar room. I immediately get up and look at my uncloth body. What happen ,i ask myself and  start getting scared. I look around the unfamiliar room. Looking for my cloth. I used blanket to cover myself. I find bath robe in the bathroom and fastly used it to cover myself. I look at the mirror, glad that i cannot find any hickey or feel any pain. Did i just sleep with a girl, all of sudden the thought come to my mind. Omg,  i screw up. I slowly open the door  and walk out looking for someone. I really hope this is nightmare.  How will i face p mile, what if i was recorded. I really destroy everything i have with him. I slowly walk around and find breakfirst are ready on the table. Who is she , i really felt nervous and worried. Then i heard someone talking at balkony. I felt like i found an aosis at the dessert. I run to him and hug him hardly. P mile who are  on the phone shocked looking at my hand who hug him from the back. I'll call you back he ended the call and turn to me. Are you ok baby, he ask me softly. I just shake my head and hug him thighter. Baby,  he call me again and put some distance so that he can see my face. What wrong , he ask. I'm so scare p , i told him. He hug me again and caress my back. I am glad it was you,  i said with glittering eyes. Let get in,it cold here he said seing me in my bathrobe. I nod and follow him obediently. Now you know, anything can happen when you being careless right, p mile ask me. I just look down avoiding his eyes. He pull my chin up, i'm not angry, i just want you to know, how dangerous it could be if you do something like last night. It always win who protect your from begining. That why you always ended in your own room when you black out when you drunk. What  if i cant make it or out of country last night, so baby please, i know u can protect your self but can you please listen to us. Its not that all of us controlling you, we just that worried and love you a lot,  he said sofltly. I'm sorry p , all i could said. Come here he pull me and comfort me again. You must be really scare he said. I thought i will lost you,  finally i said. P mile hug me tighter. Let ready for your schedule today. P toey will pick u up. It hard to supressed the media due to last nite even, is it ok he ask me again. I nodded, i  quickly prepare for my nex event. Call metawin, he is worried, he call you since last night phi mile said calmlu. It really hit me hard, i nearly lost p mile.  I wont act like a brat with metawin and be thankful for him.

Somehow i wonder why it always me being a target. There are a lot of people who are beautiful and hot in the industry. I need to work extra hard so that people wont look down at me. I need to gain more power and act more carefull. It a silent journey for me and p toey. she was worry and tell me all the story. She also felt so sorry, being a woman manager he failed to protect me. I really need to reflect on my behaviour. Before i always do what i want. As long as i dont hurt anyone else. Now i have something i want to protect even just for a while. I really want to protect what i have right now. I want to live in this dream. I 'm not ready to wake up from this beautiful dream yet. Beside want to protect what i have, it also trigger what i scare the most, my consciousness.

P why people always take advantage on me,  am i that weak, i ask p toey. She might be my new manager but i trust her judgement and her ability.  Bright your visual can be your advantage and disadvantage, you will atract all kind of people. Some want to protect but  some just want to concur, she said calmly. I look at him confusingly. Since you are together with mile, you become more attractive. so be more coutious. Dont drink from someone who you do not know personally. I'm glad mile was there last night. I wont forgive myself if anything happen to you last night.We can do this together. It hard for p to fight with man in this industries but p promise will do my best , she said calmly. I felt really guilty toward p toey. It not only about me anymore, it will effect people surround me that i love so much. After that both of us keep silent until we reach the beach resort.

Its was TS even for one of my brand who i represent. It was a simple event. I just do a few activity with my fans and sing 2 songs. After photo session we end the event. I can rest before my practice tonight. Since fans wont leave me alone i stay at vip area where only for invited people. No one will disturb me here. I just relax by my self at one corner with my cocktail. I keep playing with p mile necklace. I felt really save when i wear it. Last night accident really hit me. The way i scare of loosing him make me wonder, how will i survive when all of this end.  I need to prepare and be strong as soon as posible. Living in a dream is so beautiful, but when you face the reality, that beautiful dream become your painful nightmare.

You have beautiful necklace, suddenly and old lady greet me. I was shocked and immediate sit properly. I wai to old lady and look around looking for p toey. Do you mind if i sit here , she ask. I just shake my head. She sit next to me. What is your name she ask again. I am bright khun, i respectfully address the old lady. she must be somebody looking at her aura and charm. She laugh cheerfully. Call me grandma, she said. Sorry grandma, i said shyly. You have beautiful necklace she said again. It not mine, i said sincerely. It belong to my friend i said . she look at me with inquary look. I think it really expensive, i cant take it, i said again but more to myself. Why, it already given to you, she said. Yes it is, but it  complicated grandma. It something i should not received, i said calmly. She stare at me and ask why. We are two different people from two different world who are not mean to be together. I will enjoy this moment before i brave enough to let it go, i said with smile. Why, she ask again. I know it really selfish of me but I still consider  our relation, i never confess to him and do not accept his confession yet i said sadly. Why , grandma ask again gently.  Because it will break me hard in the future, i dont deserve him grandma. I startle because i mistakely expose his gender. Now i'm  waiting the judgement from old lady. So is it because of his gender , she ask. Dont you feel disgusting , i slowly ask. I'm so ready to accept her judgement. She just shake her head. So it the reason, She ask again. No, i said. I will face all the hate if only because of this , i said confidently. But i cant help it when he someone that out of my reach, it matter of time my little sweet dream will become my nightmare , i said calmly.
There will the day that i need to return this neclace to his owner. I think i will really broken when the day come , i said with teary eyes. Not accepting his confession will leave a bit strenght after i leave him. At least that little pride i have will help me to survive I said and quickly wipe my tears .
She look at me with unreadable face. Dont you trust him, she ask again. i trust him with my life grandma , i answer quickly. But we are not mean to be together, i'm ordinary man with a little fame that i know can be dissapear at anytime. I dont want to be his burden and a reason for people to look down at him. He is the most perfect person i ever meet. I want it maintain that way. When i'm strong enough, i will return this neclace. It not about him, it about me I said firmly.  But i really want to enjoy this moment. Am i being selfish grandma, i ask her. With teary eyes she said sometime we need to be selfish and trust me it not a dream what you have now. It reality and destiny of your life she firmly said with a sad smile. After that she leave me. I still think about the old lady and how i easily open up to her. I felt a bit relieve.  At least 1 stranger dont look at me disgustingly and support our relation.Thank you for your kind word i talk to myself.