The One

Part 15 - Big guilty

Bright Pov

I felt a big guilty toward p mile. I know what i do are wrong, but i really felt weird vibe when he close to me. I can feel brotherly love from p bible and p jeff. I felt like a twin when i'm with win.. but with p mile i felt really weird. I dont know why, that why i keep my distance from him. Actually i want to go home with win. I know he still not finish scolding me yet but i felt relly bad for p mile. I need to thank him and i dont know why i felt i need to listen to him. I just angry the way he treat me like a fragile girl. After dinner apo bring me and win to guest room. Win room next to me. Bye win, i said and follow apo. Come bright , said apo. I just smile at him. Among the gang i barely talk to him. I somehow felt uncomfotable with him. I dont know why. He come into my room and open the wardrobe. He act like the owner of the house, i felt little annoyed. You can wear this, he said and walk to the door. Thank you, i said. You are welcome, p mile room is next to your room he said. After that he just walk away. I go to the bathroom and take off my shirt, i can see there are  bruise on my shoulder. That bastard push me to the wall hard when he try to kiss me. I punch his nose and he so angry and kick my stomach. I also can see bruise on my stomach. I have a little scracth on my arm and a bruise on my fist. I manage to hide it from everyone. It really painful but i just hold it in and now i let all the pain take over. I take a quick bath and change to cloth p apo give me. A simple t shirt and sweet pant. I just bit my lips when i lay down on the bed. It felt like heaven. I send my good night message to win and try to sleep. Win ask me to call him if i need anything. After 10 minute, i heard knocked at my room door. I know win will never leave me alone. He will become more angrier when he know about my injury. I sigh and with dificulty i open the door. Suprisely its
not win but p mile at my door.

Yes p, can i help you i ask. He did not response to my question but walk toward me and i move backward to avoid him from touching me. I just look at him when he close the door. I can see first aid box with him. How did he know i ask my self. Take off your shirt. I was so shocked  and look at him scarely. I just survive from the molesting and now this. I still trauma with my previous accident. As he can read my mind he knocked my head with first aid box. I can do it my self p,  i try to avoid him. He just keep silent and look at me. I never felt shy when i am with metawin. I even can naked with him. But why i felt so shy when p mile ask me to take off my shirt. Do i need to help you, he ask again. I shake my head and look at him worriedly. Hurry up, i'm tired, i need to rest he said. I felt guilty and have no choice and slowly take my shirt off. I can see he clenched his fist when he  see the bruise at my shoulder and stomach. He hold my hand softly and look at my injured arms. He caress my hand and slowly said sorry. I was startled and look at his face. He so focus on my injury. P, i call him softly. I'm sorry for being a brat, thank you for saving me, i said sincerely. He look at my eyes and caress my face. I'm sorry , it all because of me, if i dont prevent you learning from your p, all of this will not happen, he said sadly. He look really regret of his action. It not your fault p, dont blame yourself, thank you for saving me, I said and look into his eyes. We keep staring at each other. P, i softly call p mile. It hurt , i told him when he hold my chin tightly. Just like wake up from his dream he check my face and saw a bruise from p john punch. He open first aids box and start cleaning my bruise without any word. After finish, he stand up and order me to sleep. I dont know what wrong with my heart and head. I cant think of anything, when he start to walk, i hold his hand and stand in front of him. Thank you p, it not your fault , i said and hug him. After a few second he finally response to my hug and slowly said , thank god nothing happen to you baby, i am so scared, i never felt this scared all my life. I cant hear him clearly but i just hug him till i felt he is not shaking anymore. It late p, let sleep, i said. He just nod and kiss my head. After that he walk out my door. I keep staring at the ceiling. What just happen. Did p mile kiss my head. I really cannot digest my emotion right now. I dont feel hate but felt really safe. It more weird when i dont feel angry or disgusting with him. I thought I will kill him if he touch me again. This us weird. I need to sleep and hope all.of this are dream. I need to talk with win. He will know. After a deep thought I slowly close my eyes.