Darkness. It was the only thing that I can see as I stare at the four dark corners of my room. Hindi ko na hinintay na umuwi sina mommy. Nauna na ako sa kanila dahil hindi ko na kayang mag-stay pa sa bahay ng mga Dior ng mas matagal lalo pa't nandoon si Acel at Caesar. . .or should I call him Axell now?
I chuckled sarcastically as I wipe my tears in an annoyed way before I turned and toss to the bed to find the position I am comfortable with.
Halos hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala sa nangyari ngayong gabi. This has been one of the most eventful yet the most draining celebration to me.
For some reason I feel so betrayed. I feel so stupid. Paulit-ulit kong naitatanong sa sarili at paulit-ulit kong naiisip na they planned all of this along to what? Make fun of me? Para pagmukhain akong katawa-tawa? Maging entertainment ako para sa kanilang dalawa?
I am still trying to be rational. Baka dapat makinig mula ako sa kanila. . .sa paliwanag ni Caesar. Pero nauunahan ako ng sariling damdamin at emosyon. Maybe they didn't knew about it too. . .but that's just too impossible. Mag-kapatid silang dalawa. Twins to be exact!
On top of that, how am I suppose to deal with those two? Paano kung malaman nina mommy iyong sa aming dalawa ni Caesar. . .ano'ng sasabihin nila? Now that I have thought about it. . . Caesar is my ex and we still have some unfinished business and his twin brother is my now fiance.
Napatingin ako sa phone ko na nakapatong sa ibabaw ng bed side table. I watched when it move as it vibrated indicating that someone is calling me. I sighed and slightly stood up to reach my phone and answer the call. I stared at the screen when it displayed an unknown number. Nangunot ang noo ko habang pinapanood ang pag-ring ng aking cellphone. Wala akong plano na sagutin iyon lalo na't unregistered number.
Halos limang beses na tumawag sa cellphone ko ang numero. Noong una ay akala ko tumigil na pero nakatanggap ako ng isang mensahe na galing rin doon sa numero na kanina pa tumatawag sa akin.
Unknown Number,
Ma chérie, please pick up. Talk to me.
Naitikom ko ang labi ng mabasa ang mensahe. The sender didn't need to introduce himself because the message itself and how he called me, I already know who was the sender to the message.
I ignored his message and was about to put my phone away when it beeped again. Akala ko ay galing ulit kay Caesar but it was from Acel. And he was asking if I am already at home.
Acel,
Hey, are you back home? I'm worried, Ricca and so as mom and dad.
I sighed. Tita Annabel and Tito Cyrus didn't knew I left their house earlier. I typed a reply to Acel.
To Acel,
Tell Tita and Tito that I am sorry for leaving early and tell them not to worry anymore since I manage to get back home safe.
Iyon lang ang reply ko sa kaniya. If he didn't said that tita and tito is worried, I wouldn't have replied to his message. Pinatay ko ang phone at saka ibinalik iyon sa ibabaw ng bed side table. I didn't bother changing my clothes as I didn't had the energy to do so. Nahiga na lang ako sa kama at napatitig sa kisame habang parang sirang plakang paulit-ulit na pumapasok sa isip ko ang rebelasyon kanina hanggang sa hindi ko halos namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako dahil sa pagod na nararamdaman.
Nakakapagod ang lahat sa buhay ko. Everything feels so suffocating and controlling.
“Hindi mo man lang sinabi na bibisita ka,” May Ann put a glass of juice on the table as she sat down right beside me. “You didn't even text or called.”
