To This New Year (C)

I'm Not Afraid to Die

(title cred to Black Veil Brides' song 'In The End')
*Jackie's POV*
I didn't see Jason after that, but I'm sure he's fine. I'm sitting at lunch alone, which is weird because I haven't done that in a while. David came over to my table and sat across me, he pulled my headphones out again, "What the hell David, I can only tolerate so much of that." I spat and he just stared at me and started laughing. "Oh Jay, you know you love me, don't deny it." he said laughing. I was frozen, am I really that obvious? what if Jason notices, oh god. Suddenly he was waving a hand in my face. "I was just kidding! Calm down Jay, I know you have a boyfriend, but that's what I need to talk about." he said and reached his hand out. I just stared at him, "W-What're you talking about, David?" I asked him. He grabbed my hand and urged for my free one, he was holding them both. "D-David, what are you doing? Jason's going to get mad. I d-don't like you like that, I'm s-sorry." I said, ripping my hands away from him. I had most of the cafeterias eyes on me now, a lot were laughing at David, I felt horrible, but I didn't want him to get the wrong idea, I like him but I'm not a cheater. I found myself running towards the girls room with tears falling freely until I ran into the hands of the one and only, Jason. "Hey, hey shh, what's wrong? Was it David? Don't listen to whatever he says, it's not even true, I'd never cheat on you." he said pulling me into a hug and stroking my hair. I pushed him away, "You are cheating on me, aren't you? Everybody's been telling me, I just thought you loved me, that you actually cared about me, but no, you're just like the rest. David never said anything about you, he didn't have the chance, I was scared he was going to persuade me to cheat on you! No, no way this is happening. Of course it fucking is! I knew you were just a big joke. All of this, must be hilarious right? I knew the day I got out of the hospital, when you went to your 'mom's'," I said. "I did go to my moms!" he tried to defend. "Bullshit, you came back and told me you went to your grandma's, which also you told me lives in fucking Hawaii. You never even broke up with her did you?" I said with no emotion, I was done caring. He stared at me shaking his head in shame "I knew it, what's her name?" I said softer, "J-Jessica isn't it?" he cried, but I didn't care, he deserved to cry. I started to walk away when he grabbed me again. "Scarlet, actually, her name is Scarlet, but I don't love her. I love you, even if you don't believe me, or accept my apology, I love you. please don't hurt yourself because of this. The plan can be off, just promise you won't hurt yourself, and mean it." he said. I nodded and he hugged me crying into my neck. "I promise." I whispered.