To This New Year (C)

We Can't Live Like This

*After School*
"Isobel, I'm home" I said while David came in behind me and straight to his room. He hasn't spoke a word since lunch, not even to his best friend. I feel horrible, Isobel popped her head out of the window and just smiled and waved to me. I walked upstairs and put my stuff in my room, then made my way to David's room. I opened up his door really slow. He was on his laptop. I sat on the floor, knowing the bed would squeak. I texted him,
Me: whats wrong ?
D: nothing
me: liar
D: nah. I'm fine (:
Me: tell me or I'll make you
D: what's that supposed to mean?
Me: I'm sorry about earlier
D: don't worry about it.
I heard him sniffle. I was making him cry and it broke my heart to know I broke his heart.
Me: fine
D: yeah,
Me: dinners ready
I wrote back standing up waiting for him to do the same. It worked he was glued to his phone, he got up and walked straight into my arms. I hugged him tightly, I wanted to kiss him, but I don't even know that he likes me. "How long have you been here?" he said hugging me back. "The whole time, dinners not ready either, I just wanted to be cute." I said laughing at myself. I sat on the bed and patted the spot next to me, which he sat down in. I put my arm around him, where all this confidence came from I have no idea but I loved it. "So, what were you saying at lunch, I'm sorry I did all that and made you look bad. I was scared, but I'm comfortable now." I said moving closer to him. "I was going to tell you about Jason, and I held your hands down because I was afraid you'd slap me or run away for telling you this. But, Jay, He's cheating on you." he said and moved away from me. I picked up my hand to my mouth and he flinched. "David, from the beginning I told you I'd never hurt you, trust me. Also, I know, I've known that since I got out of the hospital." I admitted. "Wait, what? you knew and you stayed with him? Why?" he was throwing questions back and forth and somehow I changed the subject to how penguins lay eggs. It had been an hour so I took it as he was happy with me breaking up with Jason. After dinner I had to decided I was going to tell David my feelings for him. I'm afraid of what hell say but it doesn't matter much anymore, all I know is that I honestly need him in my life, even if I have to continue being just friends with him. He's everything I could ask for and more. He kept staring at me and trying to read my expression, which was useless because i was the master of faking my feelings. "Hey David, I want to ask you something."