Into The Unknown

Chapter 10

Ryan's POV

I probably didn't handle the news that Abi couldn't feel her legs as well as I could have, but is there honestly a right and wrong way to handle news like that? I didn't want her to see me fall apart, believe me it wasn't on my part either.

I guessed Abi was more concerned about this than I was, I mean I will love Abi regardless of whether she can walk or not...my main fear was would she still love herself.

The very moment I fell in love with Abi was that night when we were in Milan, we danced in the street to Wonderful World. I remember watching her dance and thinking wow, how could you not fall in love with someone who loves so passionately? I always knew in my marraige there is one thing I would have to surrender to...Dancing and if she couldn't dance...well I don't even want to imagine what it will do to her.

"Ryan" Abi's voice interrupts my thoughts, as I turn to her I am happy so see she I smiling "Are you sure you're okay?" she asks. Everyone else had gone now, leaving just me and Ab's to talk properly.

"Yeah fine" I say quickly to avoid suspicion. She has obviously seen straight through my lie "I've just been thinking about things"

"Me too" Abi exhales deeply "Listen I want to talk seriously to you now ok?" I fear what's coming next, but I manage to nod "If this doesn't go the way we want it too, if I don't regain the feeling in my legs..."

"Ab's please" I can't listen to this, I can't bare the thought of her being trapped inside a body that fails her.

"Let me say it Ryan please" I nod gently "If I don't get any feeling back, well then I want you to know that you can leave"

"WHAT?!" something inside me just snaps and I lose it completely "How can you say something like that?"

"I don't want you feel trapped over a sense of duty" this infuriates me more.

"DUTY, IS THAT WHAT YOU THINK THIS IS" My voice was getting louder and louder "I am here because I love you, because the thought of trying to function without you kills me. What part of 'forever no matter what' don't you get, what can I do to make you see I don't want anyone else"

"I'm sorry I just didn't want to trap you" she tries to fight the tear's "You are one of the best things I have in my life"

"Yeah and you are the best thing in my life" I relax my voice a little "I am not trapped by duty, I am with you because I cannot possibly live my life without you in it. I need you just as much as you are going to need me" she smiles weakly and I just pray I have gotten through to her.

X-x-x

We had been sat watching movies for most of the afternoon, when I say sat I meant laid in Abi's bed. I was cuddling her from behind.

Everyone had stayed away for a while. I guess they realised we had alot to talk about "So what are you doing about your shows?" Abi asked me a question I had been avoiding, damn she knew me too well. I could feel her hands playing with my fingers.

"I've cancelled them until further notice" I replied hoping she would leave it at that, but I knew my wife better than that.

"Ryan you can't cancel all your concerts" she is annoyed with me now "When is your next show?"

"Tomorrow night, and before you say it no" I know what she is going to say.

"Why not?" even though I cannot see her face I know she is frowning at me.

"OH maybe because my wife has been in a coma for three days and I want to spend as much time with her as I can" I think my excuse is a valid one...Abi doesn't though.