Into The Unknown

Chapter 69

Ryan's POV

For the first time in my entire life, words failed me. I couldn't speak, the doctors words repeated over and over again, tormenting me to the brink of dispair.

"The mortality rate is 75%" saying it out loud doesn't make it sound any better.

"Oh honey" My Mom gasps as I tell her over he phone "How's Abi?"

"Not good..."

"Well yeah I can understand that" My Mom was the best person I could speak to at times like this "Have you both decided what you want to do?"

"I want her to be induced, but she doesn't want that. She wants to give the babies the best chance possible" the words cut me up as I try to explain everything to my Mom "I just wish I could make her see sense"

"With all due respect my love, you're not the one who has a connection with them" my Mom sighed "I'm not saying you don't love them as much as Abi, but she's the one who can feel them move inside her. She's the one nuturing them and protecting them, it's her natural instinct to want to protect them"

"Yeah I get that but..."

"Ryan I know this is hard for you to digest but honestly honey you need to support whatever she decides..."

"I can't Mom not when she makes the Decision to risk her life so lightly"

"Do you honestly think she's made it lightly? Ryan you are overlooking one key factor, who else will she be leaving behind? Abi wouldn't just take the decision of leaving her daughter without a mother lightly"

Shit how could I have overlooked Freya? My Mom was right, this wasn't an easy decision to make for her.

"She is willing to risk her own life to protect your children and to give them the best possible start in life, would you honestly say that is a bad thing" I shake my head even though I know she can't see me.

"Do you think I should support her decision?" I ask.

"I think you need to do what you think is right. You're the one who will have to live with the choice you make. I can't tell you what decision to make"

I knew what I had to do, my Mom was right I would have to live with this for the rest of my life. I opened the door slowly and could see Abi sat on the wall outside in the terrace "Hi" she smiled shakily, it's obvious she had been crying again.

"Hey" I sit beside her and take her hands in mine "Listen this is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, you are my whole world and I love you so much"

"I know, I love you too"

"I can't lose you Abi, but I know you can't lose them either so I just want you to know that I am with you whatever it takes" Abi blinked at me a few times before actually taking in what I had said.

"You don't want me to have the induction?" She stuttered.

"No I still want you to have it" I reply honestly "But if it's not what you want then I will support that, I want you to know that whatever happens next I am 100% with you"

"So I'm actually doing this, I'm having these babies" she smiled, which of course made me smile.

"No WE'RE having these babies" I hugged Abi tightly, breathing in her scent.

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It had only been been a week since we made the decision to continue with the pregnancy, and already I had read 3 different stories online. Two of which related to a tweet, I tweeted.

Abigail Jenson-Tedder has confirmed that she has taken a break from filming The Vampire Stories, after a recent health scare has left her under strict instruction to rest from the doctor. Abigail was diagnosed with a condition called Placenta Previa, which is very dangerous condition especially with a twin pregnancy. Abi and Ryan are keeping the details close to their chests but a source close to them have said that the couple would appreciate some privacy to deal with the devastating news and to cope with whatever is yet to come.

Abigail Jenson-Tedder and husband, singer/songwriter and front man of OneRepublic, Ryan Tedder have both confirmed earlier this evening that Abi's condition is in fact life threatening. When Ryan took to twitter for the first time since it was reported saying this 'I am devastated, confused and destroyed at the news my wife could lose her life due to complications in her pregnancy. We ask for privacy and understanding at a time which is obviously devastating to all of us...'

Mixed Emotions from fans as front man for band OneRepublic cancels two shows in Florida, this is what he tweeted earlier this evening 'This has not been an easy decision for me, I apologise immensely for my decision, but I have to do what's best for my family'

"It'll die down eventually" I felt Abi's hands on my shoulders. I turned quickly to see her standing behind me in one of my old tour shirts.

"You're meant to be resting" I frown as I close the lid of the laptop and stand up.

"I'm fine Ry honestly" she frowned.

"Ab's the doctor said you needed to rest as much as possible" I remind her of the conversation we had with the doctor after we had told him our decision.

"Yes and he also said he saw no reason why I shouldn't go to your show with you tonight" she frowned back at me.

"That's why you should be resting now" I stood my ground, damn my wife was stubborn when she wanted to be.

"Alright fine as long as you promise to come with me, we could watch a movie" Abi sulked and then fluttered those big beautiful lashes at me...shit I could hardly say no now could I? I nodded and exhaled deeply, she did an excited mine celebratory dance before dragging me towards the bedroom.

As we laid on the bed together watching The Goonies of all things I could sense Abi looking up at me "What?" I asked as she traced her fingers over the back of my hand.

"Listen baby, I know this is really hard for you. And I know this isn't something you want to hear, but I want you to make me a promise" I knew instantly where this was heading "I want you to promise me now while we're both here, that if anything bad happens at any point that you will save the babies"

Even though I know it's coming the words still shock me to the core "What? Abi no, it won't come to that" I argue, she just frowns at me again.

"I really hope it doesn't, but I need you to promise me if you have a choice you will save them"

"Baby I am begging you please don't put me in this position" I feel my eyes fill up, the reality of this situation hits me like a train.

"Ryan you are the only person who can speak out for me, my Mom and dad will want to save me. But I want you to make sure that these babies are the doctors priority, your babies...please Ryan" Abi pleads, as much as I want to surrender and agree. I can't do it, I can't choose them over her. She is my world.

"Abi I..."

"Please" tears filled Abi's eyes too "Ryan you're their dad, if anything happens I need you to take my place and be their dad"

"No" I shake my head and watch the forming tears fall from Abi's eyes. No I can't I was you're husband before I was their dad. I can't put their lives before yours" I can't carry on this conversation so I get up and head out into the lounge.