Into The Unknown

Chapter 38

Abigail's POV

At first it's shock that races through my body '21 or 22 weeks pregnant' his words fly around my head in a cyclone...then suddenly fear hits me the meningitis, I was pregnant while I had menigitis, just abit pregnant though a couple of weeks, would this harm the babies. I need to know "What about he menigitis?" I ask quickly and the doctor turns to look at me "Will the meningitis affect the babies?" I notice Ryan is now looking at me too. He looks as concerned a I do, the doctor flicks his attention between Ryan and myself "I would only have been a week or so pregnant at the time"

"Mrs Tedder, it's hard to tell in situations like this whether or not it will have any effect on the babies. All I can tell you is they both seem strong and healthy"

"How could they have not known she was pregnant while she was in hospital?" Ryan finally spoke, he seemed a little annoyed.

"Your wife was only a couple of weeks pregnant Mr Tedder, it would have been impossible to detect it that soon on a test"

Ryan nods, he seems happy with the doctors explanation "Is there any tests you can do to find out if it's effected the babies?" I ask anxiously.

"I'm afraid not Mrs Tedder, we can only suggest a more detailed scan to check organ and growth development" I nod even though I can't take in what he is saying. I knew I hadn't gotten off too lightly, no after effects from the illness. I just considered myself lucky, I just prayed this was still the case "We can fit you in first thing tomorrow morning"

"Yeah that's fine" Ryan interrupts my thoughts and takes my hand "I will move my meeting with Jeff to the afternoon" I nod again, still unable to speak.

We walk out of the hospital both in complete shock and full of fear "What if..." I start to speak but Ryan stops me.

"Abi, we won't know anything until after the scan tomorrow. You heard what the doctor said stressing about it isn't going to help you or the babies" Ryan puts his hand on my waist and pulls me towards him "It'll be okay, we will get through it together"

"How do you know? What of it isn't okay? What if they...?" my heart is pounding as these thoughts enter my head one at a time, torturing me in turn.

"Abi stop" Ryan snaps, although his voice sounds angry, his eyes tell a different story "Don't do this to yourself, we will know more tomorrow" he strokes my face with his thumb and moves forwards to kiss me "I love you" he moves his hand down and puts it on my bump "All 3 of you" he adds as he kisses my forehead, and Freya too of course.

X-x-x

I haven't really said anything else to Ryan about what we found out at the doctors, we agreed to keep it to ourselves until after the scan tomorrow. In fact I hadn't really said anything else at all, I had been in our hotel room listening to music and reading a new movie script Tony had emailed to me. It was good, very different to what I had done before and completely out of my comfort zone, but to be honest that's what made it more exciting. I found myself drawn in and gripped by this script, I picked up my iPhone and tried to call Tony, but I couldn't get a good signal so I walked out into the corridor.

As I paced trying to get signal it was then I heard Ryan talking to Leroy, they were near the elevator. I hid behind an archway and listened, they hadn't seen me.

"She isn't important, Abi doesn't need to find out about her yet" Ryan's words cut through me.

"You need to tell her before she reads it for herself, she'll never forgive you if you don't tell her" Leroy's reply shocked me even more What the fuck is this about, do I rush over and confront Ryan right now or do I pretend I didn't hear anything...oh shit they're walking this way.

I take a deep breath and try and act normal as I start walking towards them "Oh hey I was just coming to find you" Ryan was a bad liar but I had won awards for it "Is everything okay baby, you seem troubled?"

"Oh erm yeah, fine...we were taking about the show tonight" bullshit I thought to myself. I some how manage to fight the urge to confront him about the woman he was talking about.

"Oh right okay, so have you decided what songs you are doing tonight yet or?" I change the subject to try and distract my mind.

"Yeah we have a list kind of, just a few songs we need to run through first" I feel Ryan take my hand, he looks a little concerned "You okay?" I ask him hoping he might break and tell me, but he just smiles and nods.

"Yeah baby, you?" I can't even speak to him, my mind is thinking all kinds of different things who is she? Why can't he tell me? Has he done something? Has she done something? Have they done something together?...no that's stupid he would never do that to you Abi he loves you...but what if he has?

"Abi, honey" Leroy's voice cut through my thoughts instantly, I turned and could see him and Ryan looking at me "You left us there for a moment, are you sure you're okay?"

I look at Leroy and smile weakly "No not really I need some air" I reply as I pull my hand away from Ryan's and start walking away.

"Shall I come with you?" Ryan asked, as he started to follow me.

"No I want to be by myself" I frown "Completely by myself" I add as I turn to Leroy. My heart is pounding as I walk up the stairs towards the rooftop exit door, I am practically running as I reach the door.

My body is now slumped against the stone wall, I feel sick all of a sudden and my head starts to spin oh god not now...suddenly everything is black.