Into The Unknown

Chapter 31

Abigail's POV

I knew exactly what question was coming my way, as soon as we sat down at the table. Eddie and Zach had been trying to pump me all day, ever since Brent spotted a test script in my bag.

"Unbelievable" Ryan laughed when I was questioned about it, I love how comfortable he is around this sort of stuff now. It's great that I get on so well with the rest of the guys too, it makes things so much easier.

I find myself smiling as I reminisce about my relationship with the guys from the Backstreet Boys, I was always really close to them as well as Nick "So are you taking the part?" Drew asked curiously, this brought my attention back to the present time.

"I won't I'm afraid" I reply , Drew and Eddie look disappointed. I can't shake the feeling Ryan had already spoken to Zach and Brent about it as they didn't seem surprised "I didn't really feel the need to explore that side of my career, plus I am hardly in a position to do nude shots now" I chuckle as I stroke my swollen stomach.

"Fair enough, so who is playing Anastasia Steele?"

Before I could answer Drew my phone vibrated on the table, it was Tony "Sorry Drew" I apologise for not being able to answer his question right away "Hey Tony what's up?"

"Hiya honey are you okay? I have just seen it on the news"

Oh god we're on the fucking news, I think to myself "Yeah we're all good" I look around and see Ryan is listening to Tony "Everyone's fine"

"That's good baby girl" Tony sound like he wanted to ask me something "Hey listen a radio station in Montreal have called, they want to know if you would do an interview on their breakfast show at 6.30am"

"That's straight off the plane?" I am not sure if I like this idea or not.

"It's literally round the corner from the airport and is close to your hotel" Tony had obviously checked it all out first before calling me "It won't be a long interview"

"Yeah okay" I finally give in its not a hard task is it I suppose. I notice Ryan is shaking his head, he looks less than happy.

"You're a diamond sweetie, I will call Eric now. Thank you so much"

I say goodbye to Tony and turn to look at Ryan who is still shaking his head "What could I say?"

"I can think of a word..." I can feel Ryan put his hand on my back "You are too soft sometimes, don't forget you only have 8 more days off before you start filming again. You need to take it easy until then"

"Yes Dad" my eyes roll at him, he is always so protective.

"I mean it Ab's, I can't keep my eye on you while you're filming but I can take care of you while you're here" I surrender, I am not going to win this discussion. I hate to admit it but Ryan is right I need to make the most of my free time, filming was usually a long gruelling process which could one times involve up to 16 hours on set per day.

"I know baby" I put my hand on Ryan's and look into his eyes, I can hear everyone around us talking amongst themselves "I will be careful I promise" I know how worried he is about me, it's still so soon after the menigitis.

I continue to watch Ryan curiously, suddenly I am lost in thought as Sam Cooke starts to play over the radio. To my surprise Ryan grabs my hand and pulls me to my feet. He puts a hand on the small of my back and takes my other hand in his, we are gently moving and swaying to 'Nothing Can Change This Love'

Ryan laughs at me frowning at him "Do you remember what you said to me before our wedding day?" He looks straight into my eyes as we carry on dancing while we talk "About dancing?"

"I said I never wanted my husband to feel embarrassed by dancing and that he needs to be willing to dance anytime, anywhere"

"Yep" Ryan chuckles, his gorgeous grin melts me instantly, as it always does. He throws me out gently into a few turns and twirls, but pulls me back into his body urgently. Almost as though he cannot bare to be away from me "Coz honey, nothing, nothing, can ever change this love I have for you..." he sung gently as he twirled me out and pulled me back again.

We both laughed as the song ended and the first lines of Counting Stars started playing, Ryan rested his forehead against mine and smirked at me. He had noticed the members of staff swooning from behind the bar as we danced "Aww you guys are so cute" Zach mocked as we sat down.

"Hey you didn't falter once" Ryan said as he took a drink from his bottle of beer "Your balance is definately improving"

"Well I have been practising" I smile and bite my lip "Balancing techniques" Ryan looks puzzled, but nods and smiles.

"Just be careful okay" he frowns before turning his attention to the conversation that is going on between Brent, Zach, Eddie and Drew. I turn to Leroy who is smiling widely at me "What?" I am a little curious.

"It's such a great feeling, seeing you so happy Abi" Leroy gushed "You're gonna miss him when you go to Georgia"

"Yeah I know, I'm trying not to think about it too much"

"Sorry"

"It's okay, I need to think about bout it at some point. The last 2 months have gone so quickly"

"Yeah and the next 5 months will fly by" Leroy puts his hand on mine, I notice Ryan glance over. I try and fight my emotions but I feel my eyes burning "Hey sweetie" Leroy puts an arm around me and pulls me into a tight hug.

Suddenly all at once I am forced to face a fear that has been haunting me for the past couple of weeks. The fear of being alone for 5 months, filming in Georgia without seeing Ryan. It was hard enough thinking of being away from him before, but now I am pregnant it just makes things a million times harder.

I don't know why I feel like this, it's not like I haven't been on my own for long periods of time. It happened all the time with Nick, but over the last 4 years I have learned that my relationship with Ryan is so different. The thought of being away from him for so long was killing me, and even more so now I am 4 months pregnant.
I can feel the tear's escaping my eyes, a single tear falls down my cheek and I quickly dismiss it with my hand, hoping no-one sees it "I'm going to the bathroom" I quickly stand up and rush towards the ladies restroom. My heart is pounding and I can hardly breathe as I lean back against the cold toilet door. I lock it quickly and crouch down, waiting for my heart to steady itself.