Into The Unknown

Chapter 17

Abigail's POV

It has been three weeks and I honestly don't know how much longer I can cope, being on this tour bus. Don't get me wrong the company is awesome, it's the damn motion sickness that is putting a downer on my entire trip.

Touring with Ryan and the rest of OneRepublic for two months seemed like the perfect solution when I came out of hospital, but I never for a second anticipated I would suffer so severely with motion sickness. It has never been a problem for me before. I had toured on a bus with both Nick and Ryan thousands of times before.

Brent and Zach both suggested that maybe it could have something to do with the effect the meningitis had on my brain, apparently it isn't unheard of, some people even have changes to their sense of smell and taste.

The worst part for me wasn't the sickness, it was knowing Ryan blamed himself for the way I feel. I had spent most of the 4 hour journey running backwards and forwards to the toilet throwing up which let me tell you was not an easy task on a moving bus.

We were heading to Nashville, the guys had two shows and a day off which they decided to spend there before jetting off to Canada "Are you sure you're okay baby?" Ryan came into the bathroom with a bottle of water, I could tell he was starting to get worried about me.

"Yeah I'm fine" I take the water, he has already loosened the cap for me "Thanks"

"When did you say you had a doctor's appointment?" He frowned, Ryan had been watching me like a hawk for the last few days. I am guessing he knew I was starting to feel drained.

"This afternoon"

"Did you want me to come with you?" He asked as he followed me into the lounge.

"No Ry, it's fine. Your rehearsal time is already restricted, it's important you get a few hours" Ryan didn't look convinced "Honestly baby I can manage, I just need to get my shot and some anti - travel sickness pills"

"Alright" Ryan agrees but is still reluctant. We both sit on the couch in the lounge and I feel my eyes getting heavy, it isn't long before I drift off to sleep.

X-x-x

"Baby we're here" I'm not really sure how long I have been asleep, but Ryan hadn't moved. I noticed a pen and some scraps of paper on the table next to us. He must have been jotting down some lyrics while I slept "You feeling better?" I smile, nod and stretch.

"A little" that is a lie even though we aren't moving anymore my stomach is still churning. I get up off the couch and follow Ryan and Zach off the bus. I look around and realise we are in the car park of what seems to be a very up market hotel, Alice did good this time.

"Come on let's go and check in" Ryan takes me by the hand and drags me toward the hotel entrance.

"OH MY GOD" a female voice squeals "It's OneRepublic, and Abigail's with Ryan" a crowd of 8 girls gathers around Ryan and the rest of the band. It isn't long before there is a larger group, it is really hard to walk the short distance to the hotel. As Ryan forces a clear path through for us I am shocked to feel my hand being torn out of Ryan's.

"Take a picture with me Abi" it is a male fan, he has hold of my wrist and is dragging me deeper into the crowd of people. It isn't long before panic takes over me shit I can't see Ryan where is he.

"ABI" Suddenly he comes back in view, he is slamming his way through the small crowd. He grabs the guy who has hold of my wrist and litrally throws him off me "You don't grab her like that, EVER, GOT IT" Ryan is raging with anger by this point, I put my hand on his arm and try and calm him down. I can feel his pulse racing and see his jaw line tensing.

"I'm sorry I just" the guy quickly came back and apologised.

"She hasn't been out of hospital long, you ripping her out of my hand is not cool man" Ryan quickly backs off, I think he realises how out of hand the situation was getting. Usually Leroy would be here to handle things like this but he had, had an emergancy at home and needed to take a few days off. We had a stand in bodyguard but he wasn't a patch on Leroy, much to Tony's annoyance. Unfortunately this wasn't the first time something like this had happened, last week I was almost pulled into a crowd of 15,000 people at a concert by an over excited fan. Yet again it was Ryan jumping off the stage that saved me, security didn't even realise what was happening until Ryan pushed him away and dragged me back.

When we got into the hotel, Zach and Brent gathered round "You okay sweetie" Zach asked, my hands were shaking.

"This is getting fucking stupid now" Ryan spat as we walked into the main lobby of the hotel "Get me Tony on the phone now"

I didn't speak I had no idea what to say and if I was honest I still felt like I was going to throw up at any minute "Listen I know what you're saying man, but this can't keep happening. We need someone who is going to do a good job" Ryan's voice echoed through my head. I know where he was coming from but I hated when he spoke to Tony like this "With all due respect she is my wife and I am not willing to let her be at risk like this. When will Leroy be back?" Ryan walked off into the bar area as the woman behind the desk came over to us.

I wasn't really listening to the woman as I checked me and Ryan into our room I just took a mental note of the room number and let a porter take our luggage.

I wasn't really listening to Ryan even though I was stood with him, I was more concerned about my stomach churning.

X-x-x

After a conversation with Tony and then with Leroy, Ryan had finally calmed down a little well enough to rehearse. He was less than happy with me going to my doctors appointment without him, but Brent and Drew persuaded him that they needed him there. Dean one of the venues security guards agreed to accompany me, I honestly felt like a child. But it was the only way Ryan would let me go by myself. Although it was under the strict instruction I was going in alone.

X-x-x

"So Mrs Tedder, how are you feeling?" The doctor was a young Canadian woman "Any set backs at all?

"No none" I reply "Apart from I seem to be suffering with severe travel sickness"

"Oh that's not good" she smiled "Did you remember to bring me a water sample" I hand the doctor my small green sample pot. She dips a small stick in it and leaves it resting on the bottle lid "Ok I understand you have come for your contraceptive injection while your here"

"Yeah, it's not due until the end of the week but I was told I could have it a little early"

"Yes you can, I guess with a busy lifestyle like yours it's hard to keep track" the doctor smiled as she walked over to the water sample dip strip. She had my contraceptive injection in her hand all ready to go, but as soon as she saw the results she paused "Oh I'm sorry Mrs Tedder I can't give you this shot"

"What" What do you mean can't, What!? "Why not, I have had this shot every 3 months for the past 3 and a half years" is this woman for real, does she not realise I need this shot today?

"Yes I understand that Mrs Tedder" I wish she would stop calling me that "But I am afraid I can't give you it today"

"Why not" I snapped.

"Because you are in fact pregnant Mrs Tedder" she called me it again damn that woman...hang on, wait! WHAT?!?! Did she just say pregnant?

"Huh" That's all I can manage right now, words are failing me.

"You're pregnant" she repeats cheerfully. I can hardly move, let alone speak. I do however feel a vibrating in my jeans pocket.

"Hey baby I just want to make sure you're okay, how you getting on?"

"I'm pregnant..." I never meant to blurt it out to Ryan like that, but I couldn't help it.

Shit he isn't replying, he isn't happy oh shit...fuck...!