Sticky pie man played hide the penny with me. He didn't speak English but we managed to communicate. He always sat in the same spot, at the end of the counter, at Steak & Eggs, one seat away from the register. I would sit in the end seat when he was there & bug him with conversation he didn't understand. Somehow we worked out the hide the penny game! After I found the penny so many times he would buy me a piece of pecan pie and it was the only pecan pie I ever had the pleasure of tasting in my childhood. It was amazing! One time I filled my mouth with water & then motioned for him to squeeze my cheeks....
Which he did!
My mom yelled "KRISTINA"!
But sticky pie man laughed even though I sprayed water all over him.
I've always been prone to doing dumb things without realizing how dumb they are.
I'm learning though.
Even now at almost 49
I'm still learning.
I don't feel fit for adulting!
And I should probably come with a warning label.
I'm a hazard to myself.
I know it.
I am exactly as I am
Because of every experience
Person
Thought
Action
Reaction
Deflection
Acceptance
Intentional and unintentional.
Same as every other human.
I can say that every thing I've done was in a search for love & feeling better inside.
Even spraying water in sticky pie man's face!
I thought it would make him laugh but ultimately I did it without even thinking of why I was doing it. I believe in myself. I know I am good inside. And if I was a beetle of prolly be a dung beetle. I've been through so much shit in this life that all I can do is laugh in amazement that I've made it through & do better at being a good person. That's all I want. Is to be a better person than I've been in the past.
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This is my truth
Non-FictionMy life has been an intense journey from a little girl who was beaten down and abused into believing that she was worthless, to a woman at 43 years of age who is still desperately searching for who she truly is. I found her though. I did. And she wr...
