Late night drives

XLIX : Regrets

I had many regrets in my life. I regret going to the abandoned hangar that night. I regret not saving Ricky. I regret not having the guts to even tell him a last goodbye. And today once again I have regrets. Trusting others can be harmful. I have always thought that I could never trust anyone else. But there's something you can not quite predict. And whether someone is trustworthy or not is one of them. This inexplicable feeling of being comfortable without having to force anything. When your heart feels at ease. You could stay here for a thousand years and more. This is how I felt every second I spent with him. I didn't want to believe it when the evidence was there. I tried so hard to keep myself from overthinking it so it doesn't come true. However, this can not be held any longer. I trust Kim. He is certainly not the most humble person on Earth or the nicest out there. Nevertheless, I believe he did not attack Ricky. He couldn't hurt that I was sure of even if I couldn't understand why I strongly believed it. Those days spent with him went by very quickly. I had multiple occasions to watch over his action and learn to think like him. He is a man with simple logic. Not that he couldn't suppress his true nature, thus is not the question. He is deep inside just as confused. And put off just an act. I must admit that he's quite a good performer. I know how to recognize one when I see him.

Plus, Ash's reaction was not convincing enough. He said multiple that he wanted to fulfill his goal. How could I not guess what he meant? Everything makes sense now. Just when we started suspecting him Silver got into an accident. His timing was off at this time only. I have to get him to confess since there's no more proof against him.

I enter the room Silver's currently staying in. Making sure I close the door precausionouslly. As I walk toward his bed. He starts to talk.

" So you already know."

I am startled but I keep walking. He was so quick to understand. It makes me wandered if he truly didn't know anything. Why would he be lying about that?

" So you did know, didn't you?"

" Yes. I am sorry I lied to you."

" Why?"

" I had my reasons."

" Is it about Ash?"

" I had to investigate first. Plus I didn't want to worry Kim about that. He's been doing fine recently. To be honest better since you came. "

I remain silent as I don't quite know exactly what to say. A few seconds later once I finally gather all my strength I open my mouth to say:

" Whatever happened I decided I wanted to trust him.
foolish of me isn't it? I can't even understand why. I just feel as if trusting him is the right thing to do."

He gently smiles as he tries to raise his head above the bed.

" Well, that's good news."

Suddenly his face distorts in pain ad he grinds his teeth to contain a grunt.
He is suffering intensely. I reach out to help him as fast as I could.

" I am glad to hear that you decided to give him a chance."

I nod and then ask.

" So what exactly happened with Ash? Do they know each other?"

" You'll find out sooner or later. There's no point in keeping it from you anymore. "

Once he's completely adjusted in his bed Silver proceeds on answering my question.

" Yes, we do know him. He was the apprentice of your brother."

" He also knew Ricky? Why did he lie to me and acted as if he didn't know anything?"