Late night drives

XXIX : Broken

There is me seating on a cold wooden floor, completely distraught over all the events that just occurred. I don't even know how long I've been sitting here. Probably since I arrived, I look at the clock, half an hour ago. Ash came a few minutes after I called him. We drove silently until we arrived in front of his apartment doors. Since then I am sitting in the same spot immobile, or not even capable to move. Impossible for me to figure out how am I feeling at this exact moment.

"Here." He said while bringing me a cup of hot cocoa. Right it will soon be the Christmas season I have almost forgotten. How come the days passed by as fast as a blink of an eye? It has already been two months, hasn't it?
Unfortunately, burn my tongue despite having waited a long time before starting to drink. Ash laughed a little mocking my reaction to the sudden heat. I would have been vexed before but it doesn't seem to bother me anymore.

" Are you okay ?"

" Yeah, I am good. No one has never died from a minor burning tongue as far as I know."

" I meant about what happened at Kim's house ?"

" Oh." I pause unable to find the proper to express my thoughts. " It is him."

" What do mean him?"

" I saw a picture in one of his drawers. They were three Silver him and another guy that wasn't very recognizable. But I am sure it is Ricky."

" How are you so sure? "

" A hint. " I show him the necklace that I was wearing. He seemed somehow surprised to see it. Has he seen it before?

" I saw it while I was doing some investigation on Kim's. " I press it against my hand.

" Do you think they were friends?"

" At least they seemed more than simply opponents to me. As if almost close friends. The same relationship he might have with Silver maybe."

" If they were that close why would have Kim gotten rid of him?"

"He must have thought of him as a growing threat. He, therefore, succumbed to his mischievous desire to win at all costs."

" Kim is indeed the type who doesn't play when it comes to victory. So now that we know what are we doing?"

" To be completely frank with you, I have no either. All I know is that I wish that asshole to pay for all the sins he had committed. He does not deserve to stand at top of this league. My brother does."Did.

"If it wasn't for his egocentric obsession my brother would have been still alive to this day. And my life is so much easier. He doesn't deserve it. He does not deserve to be successful in his place. I don't know if I would be able to contain myself if I see him again. The urge to smack this annoying face of his. Seeing him on the ground. Losing everything before my eyes. I don't think I could resist. "

" Matthew I am sorry...If only I knew that it would have hurt you I would have never asked you to help me."

" You didn't know. I didn't know either. Although I should have."

"You don't have to go on with the plan anymore. I will take care of everything. I should have done it from the beginning and not brought you into that."

I turn around to look at him. His eyes are saddened by his remarks. he puts his hand on my shoulder to comfort him by sitting down next to me. we look at each other for a moment in silence before he leans in to kiss me. This time I do not refuse it and let it be. Hoping that will ease my frustration. The kiss starts to get longer and longer. He's taking his time before doing anything else. Slowly add a little more pressure. Then he slips his hand under my jersey, slowly pulling it up to take it off. It is then around his jersey to end up on the ground. it doesn't stop him from continuing to kiss me and go through my whole body curled up against him.

Should I stop him before this gets too far? I would not like us to get uncomfortable after. I wouldn't want that to interfere with the continuation of the plan. It might even interfere with achieving my goal. At the same time, I hesitate when I think of what Joshua told me. it might not be so bad to give him a chance. or is it still too risky? I approach him to return his kiss. Before I even finish finding my answer my phone rings again. I stop abruptly. Even if he's a little confused he backs down anyway. I pick up without even checking who it was. Once I start talking he gets up and walks over to the kitchen counter.

Matthew: "Hello..."

Mom: "Matthew you're out once again late. Your midterms are starting soon. You should be studying. Not wasting your time in the streets. Doing God knows what."

I almost busted out laughing. How ironic. I clear up my throat before answering her.

Matthew: "Mom, I will be home soon. Don't worry." And the next midterms are right before Christmas so there's nothing to worry about. "

Although it's indeed late I should have told her that I wouldn't come home early. Even if I did she might not have remembered or seen my text messages. She's always so busy at work.

Mom: " You always have the same excuse. I want to see you home before I live for work." I look at the time she should have left already. Is she waiting for me?

" I-..." Suddenly I can't say anything. No sounds would come out of my mouth it stays open for a few seconds. I have a strange feeling of déjà vu that is slowly tying a knot in my stomach. Not because Ash's back is huge what caught my eye at this moment is his tattoo. I didn't know he had one. It starts from the middle of his back going up to his neck. Although it's the first time I am seeing it. I have sorts of flashbacks as if it reminded me of one tattoo I've had a glimpse of before. I can not find where or from whom yet. And it frustrates me.

"MATTHEW." I almost forgot to answer.

" Yes, Mom. I am on my way. " I reply before hanging up.

"You're living already ?"

"Yes. My mom is so close to beating the shit out of me if I'd dare even a few seconds too late."

" Then I will drive you home."

" No. It's okay. I will be fine on my own."

" You don't like to accept some help, do you?"

" Force of a habit." I try to brush it off with a laugh of embarrassment. He then leaned on me again to kiss me softly on the lips. After that, I rush through the door. Everything went so fast that I had almost forgotten my sore ankle and my painful hand. Maybe I should have just accepted his help. However it's too late now, I have to get home as quickly as it is humanly possible to do so.

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Thank you for reading !!!

Now that Matthew is free from this secret at least the burden of keeping it a secret. I can't wait to see what will be the dynamics between the two of them.
Plus what about Kim? What does he have to do with Matthew's brother?

In any case could that be an opening for Ash to try to shoot his shot with Matthew?

See you next week.

Vicky❤️