GAY DADDY

16: Ailexir Buendia

" Gay Daddy "

No one told me that once you get a child at an early age, adulthood will immediately knock in.

And I litterally do not know if how would I welcome it. I'm quite thinking of not opening that door.

Fearing that I will just mess up again and run away from this.

I feel like my whole teenage days will now turn into impossible. I can see my whole life there in that tiny incubator.

She's so little. Not believing that I made that cute little thing. That tiny creature who will soon turn my world upside down.

I'm so afraid that if I touch her, she might break.

" Oh..she would be our tiny baby cute princess. " I can hear kuya Xavier muttered beside me. I can say that he's amazed.

Dad is also on the other side of me.

" Damn, how did you make that little angel right there?"

Loading akong natulala at wala sa sariling napalingon kay kuya.

Naiiling siyang napangiti.

" Who would have thought dad, si Lexir pala 'yung unang makapagbibigay sa'yo ng apo. "

Napalunok ako at hindi na tumingin kay daddy.

I want to hope that he's happy from this moment. Hindi 'yung madidissapoint lalo dahil ang bata ko nagkaanak.

Ngayon paano ko siya bubuhayin? Kung estudyante palang ako?

" Ang ganda...ganda ng bata." Napasulyap ako kay daddy, pero may pait akong nakikita sa kanyang mga mata.

Napatingin siya sa'kin. And there I see the truth.

" From now on, you should take responsibility for this one Lexir. This baby redeem you from all the dissapointments you've given into this family. So better get hold of yourself now. Don't be such a fool again. "

Pagkasabi 'nun ay umalis na siya. Sumunod agad sa kanya si kuya.

Napabuntong hininga ako at napahaplos sa glass window.

I can now feel all the fear flowing into my system.

Gosh. . kaya ko ba?

Kaya ko nga bang maging ama sa kanya?

Isang linggo ang lumipas ay na discharge na si Honeybee.

She's still recovering from her surgery. Pa minsan-minsan ay dinadalaw siya ng kanyang parents.

As for Haiden, hindi 'to nakadalaw dahil nagsisimula ng magtraining sa PMA.

Siguro kung hindi nangyari sa'kin 'to baka nasa PMA na'rin ako ngayon.

Napatingin ako kay Honeybee na pinipindot ang keyboard ng piano dito sa sala.

Wala sa tono at tingin ko ginagawa lang niya 'yun upang e-distract ang sarili.

I bet she's bored now. From recovering through a C-Section operation to postpartum phase, I know it's not that easy for her.

" Are you excited that Princess will be home soon?" Out of the blue kong tanong sa kanya.

Natigil siya sa pagpindot at napatingin sa'kin.

Hindi siya makapagsalita at napaawang lamang ang labi.

" Honeybee? Our child will be home soon, aren't you excited? " I try to sound happy, but I can now pick up her mood.

She's nervous.