Nervous | Aonung

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Weaving the cotton under some leaves I curse under my breath when I stab myself with the thin needle we use. I bring the finger up to my mouth sucking on it before returning back to working.

Ronal and I were making pillows for the wounded so they wouldn't have such a hard surface to lay on.

"How are you and your Nan?" She asks, making conversation.

"We're okay," I lie, nodding my head.

"Will you be going home tonight?" She questions.

I don't know if I want to go home tonight. I know I need to talk to Nan but if I go to her first than she wins.

"I don't know," I shrug, tying a knot in the leaves.

"Your always welcomed to stay here dear," Ronal smiles, patting my leg.

"Thank you," I smile.

She takes her hand off my leg as she goes back to weaving and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. Physical touch still scares me.

Unless it's Aonung

I smile stupidly at the thought of Aonung, I should be mad at him and I still kind of are. But he loves me. He told me just an hour ago.

Fuck

I need to be mad at him. He can't just get away with things because he's tall and pretty and funny and sweet to me and tall.

"Are you pregnant?" Ronal asks suddenly, making my head jolt up.

"What?!?" I yell. "Sorry."

"Aonung and you had sex right?" She says casually, continuing to work.

"Um, king off," I mumble, rubbing the back of my neck.

"Well when you have sex with Tsaheylu you get pregnant," Ronal explains.

I already knew that and I didn't how I was going to explain this. He didn't cum, Tonowari interrupted us and we didn't make Tsaheylu.

"We didn't make Tsaheylu and um," I pause trying to find the words. "Tonowari kinda stopped it before anything could really, kind of, sort of, um, happen?"

"Ok," she nods as if it was nothing.

I just nod my head as I go back to weaving. We had finished at least two each and my fingers were getting sore because I kept poking them.

"Can I tell you something?" She asks.

"Of course," I smile, looking up at her but she stayed looking down.

"Sex is better with Tsaheylu," she blurts out with an unreadable face.

"Um, I don't know what I'll do with that information," I mumble, picking at the leaves.

"Tell Aonung, he'll listen to you," Ronal looks up, smiling innocently.

"I, um we don't want to," I whisper hoping she didn't hear me. "Not yet anyway."

"You must mate eventually, why not now?" She asks, tilting her head to the side.

"Because we're seventeen, I don't want to get pregnant right now," I answer truthfully, hoping she'll get the extremely clear message.

"Is it Aonung? Is he unable to perform?" Ronal asks, generally concerned.

Oh he performs

"Um," I pause, not knowing how on pandora to answer that.

"Do I need Tonowari to teach him how to pleasure a women?" She looks at me sympathetically.

"No, no, that's ok," I smile awkwardly.