My Lion. || BXB

chapter thirty-eight.

it was safe to say lionel and i didn't get much sleep last night. one minute we were talking about his family, and other serious topics. then the next, we were kissing. we were touching. we were tasting. although we never had sex. a part of me is still quite scared to go the full way and i think lionel is too. i'm still not fully sure how it works, but i plan to do some research about it later so i get it right when lionel and i do go through with it.

lionel and i were now sitting up in his bed scrolling individually through our phones before we had to leave for school. his arm was around my shoulder and my head was resting calmly on his shoulder. this was a common occurrence for us, and i loved every second of it.

i can't help but notice lionel is such a different person when he's with me compared to when he's at school. when its just me and him he's gentle, caring and sweet — but when he's in school i've noticed her a lot more rough and scary-like. i much prefer him like this, although i'll admit i find it pretty hot when he's being all alpha male at school. something about him having a 'soft spot' for me makes me feel even more secure in our relationship. i don't know why.

"we should head to school." he pinched my forearm, and i shrieked away from him in pain.
"ow you bitch!" i growled at him after scurrying away and up to my feet. he laughed at me from his bed while turning his phone off and started tying his tie for school.

he stopped after getting up to his feet and looked at me rubbing my arm in comfort.
"wanna do this for me?" he gestured down to his half-done tie. i furrowed my eyebrows,
"why?"
"we can be like one of them cute couples in the movies, obviously." and i could practically see the sarcasm in his face.
"tie your tie so we can get to school already." i scoffed playfully and i watched his cheeks turn pink but he chuckled nonetheless and continued tying his tie.

after we left his house, we somehow started talking about my family which is just wonderful.
"so are you gonna speak to your dad?" he asked me, and i paused momentarily to think.
"i don't know. do you think i should?"
"i mean, he is your dad huntley." lionel shrugged, swinging a reassuring arm around my shoulder. i leaned into the touch.

"you're right. i'll go talk to him today." i sighed, and lionel pressed a kiss to my lips shortly before pulling away again.
"promise me you won't listen to anything that shrink says if you run into him there." he said while stopping us both from walking.
"what?" i ask, turning to look at him with curiosity shining in my eyes. did he think i'd believe anything this stupid doctor would say and leave him? because that won't bloody happen.

"you know.. i've heard they can be very persuasive. but i want you to know theres nothing wrong with—"
"lionel stop." i butted in, bring a finger up against his lips to shush him. "anything you're about to say i already know."
he smiled to me, and i smiled back. no more words were exchanged after that. we walked the rest of the way to school in comfortable silence while lionel's arm hanging losely around my body.

when we got in vision of the school i gave him a look and he shrugged his arm off me, pulling a sheepish grin while doing so.
"want me to walk you home after school?" he asked while we were both standing within distance of the school.
"yeah, that'd be nice." i grinned back to him, and he looked around us quickly.
"can i kiss you?"
"lionel—"
"please, i really want to fucking kiss you."

and with a swift look around us, i leant on my tiptoes and pressed my lips firmly against his. his hands shifted their way onto my hips and i leaned closer.
"i should go." i mumbled, not wanting to be late for tutor.
"yeah, right." he licked his lip and grinned down at me. "you're blushing."
"shut your mouth." i groaned, turning away and strutting towards school. i heard lionel walking loosely behind me but as long as nobody saw that little kiss, we'd be fine.