My Lion. || BXB

chapter fourty-seven.

i'm stressed.

me and freddie are friends again, which i am absolutely thrilled about, but that doesn't help the situation i am currently experiencing with lionel. i hadn't seem him since wednesday. he hadn't tried to text, call, or even come see me in school. is he over me? did he get bored?

no, surely not. he likes me, he said himself. but why hasn't he come to find me? why didn't he speak to me for the past few days? fuck, why am i so stressed over a stupid boy!

if he wants to talk to me, he will. if not, i guess thats it.

"so you and freddie are alright again then, i guess?" nick spoke as he and i were walking to the cafeteria for lunch.
"yeah." i shrugged, still feeling conflicted about lionel.
but nick instantly knew something was off, "okay, what's on your mind?" he ushered, and i sighed.
"just... lionel. we're not doing too great." i tried to keep it as short as possible, since it was still quite weird talking about this with nick.
"go on."

"i'd rather not." my eyes stayed fixated on my shoes as we walked, trying to show nick that i really didn't want to talk about it.
"well, okay then." he muttered, a wave of awkwardness showering over his body. "but i want you to know that you can talk about him to me whenever. i may not be over the moon about you two but you're my friend hunter. i'll always be here."

i stopped walked, he did the same. my eyes bounce up to glance at him, and suddenly i felt rather sentimental. "thank you. for being so understanding." nick just smiled in response before continuing to walk on. i took a deep breath before following him.

i had a feeling today should be the day i tell the rest of our friends about my relationship. i had kept them in the dark too long, it wasn't right. and of course, there's this stranger who has a picture of me and lio kissing that can be released at any moment. its best me and lionel being together comes from me, not some unknown picture.

although, then i realised that we're actually not together. sure, i like him and surely he likes me. but we haven't spoken in nearly a week, and i guess i should fix that before i talk to any of my friends.

"actually— i'm going to go talk to him now, i'll see you guys at lunch later." i said to nick as we we're approaching the cafeteria. he nodded hesitantly, clearly not being too happy about it, but he didn't voice any sort of protest.

i turned and begun making my way to the forest where i knew lionel would be. my mind was racing, knowing that i wanted to keep my cool during this conversation. lionel had annoyed me, but i could at least hear out his reasoning for not contacting me all week. that is, if he even had a reason.

"hello?" i spoke loudly, my voice echoing through the bare trees. autumn was coming, my favourite season.
"what are you doing here?" it was alexander. he approached me confidently, his arms swaying at his sides as he came closer.
"is lio here? i have to talk to—"
"okay whatever, i have better things to do than hear your meaningless words. lionel isn't here."
his bluntness threw me off truthfully. why lionel was friends with this guy was beyond me.

i spoke up again, "well where is he?"
"toilet." i nodded before wordlessly turning away and making my way towards the school toilets.

i pushed the door open and instantly caught sight of lionel. he was washing his face at the sink, but noticed me in the reflection of the mirror.
"huntley?" he turned around to me, his fringe dripping with water that he had unintentionally splashed.
"hey." i said sternly, walking towards him snd folding my arms. "good to know you're alive at least."
"i know you're probably confused—"

"confused? you haven't spoken to me in nearly a week!" i shouted, binning off my idea of staying calm. "what is it i have done wrong?"
"you haven't done anything wrong, just let me talk." i watched lionel as he dried his hands on a paper towel before throwing it on the floor and stepping towards me.

"i didn't want to face you because... oh hunter i can't— listen..." his loss of words worried me. lionel was rarely ever at a loss of words what on earth was on this boys mind?
"i haven't spoken to you before i didn't want to have to tell you.."
my face furrowed, "tell me what?"

he looked conflicted, avoiding my eye contact and shifting uncomfortably in his spot.
"i found out who the blackmailer was." he said, "well actually alex found out but—"
i instantly cut him off, "who is it?" why wouldn't he tell me sooner? something was wrong, this conversation made me feel queasy.
"hunter i'm sorry—"
"just tell me lionel!" i half-heartedly shouted, flailing my arms up desperately.
"cormac."