My Lion. || BXB

chapter fifty-two.

i had agreed to meet up with lionel today, since i hadn't seen him all week. purely because i had been avoiding him... but after my little day out with my father i'm feeling much better. he made me realise that my relationship with lionel shouldn't be hated on. i found someone who cares for me like nobody ever before and i care for him just the same. why should i apologise for liking a boy who has been nothing but nice and supportive towards me?

i know lionel and my friends have drama, and i know lionel has been the cause for pretty much all of it. he can be rude and unfair but over it all he is nothing but a loyal, loving and honest person. i refuse to beg my friends for forgiveness any longer. i've fallen in love, and i don't regret that anymore.

the doorbell rung, and i instantly got up to my feet and raced to open it. my eyes settled on him, and i wordlessly pulled him in by his neck and collided our hungry lips. lord, i have missed this.

lionel didn't seem to complain as he kissed me back instantly, massaging his hands into my waist comfortably. after our lips separated i pulled him into a hug and dug my head into his neck.
"i'm so sorry." i mumbled, unsure of if he actually heard it.
he pulled his head back, "for what?" lionel asked with a confused expression.
"for pushing you aside! for ignoring you for days, when i should've just been open and honest about how i was feeling." i waited for some sort of response from him but i didn't get it. we stood there in silence for a few moments until he looked into the house curiously.

"can we sit down?" he asked, which only made me even more nervous, yet i agreed and led him into the living room.
"love, i want you to talk to me about everything all the time. i want you to trust me enough to feel comfortable telling me anything, alright? but truth me told i'm not mad about you not texting or anything for the past few days because i haven't even had my phone."
wait what? "huh?"

"i broke it, on wednesday. and my mom grounded me for the past few days, that's why i haven't called you at all since yesterday. i only knew something was wrong because my mom mentioned you seemed upset when your dad picked you up from school early the other day." and then it started to piece together. this is why lionel never texted me first in the period of time we didn't speak. i'm such an idiot.

i recollected my thoughts after that shock, "oh, wow. so you have no idea whats happened with my friends?" i asked.
"no...? why? what happened?"
"lionel... when i went to confront cormac ahout the blackmail, he got mad. he shouted at me and basically told me that we aren't friends anymore—"
"HE WHAT?!"
"—i'm not done, just wait. then i went to school the next day and they've all been avoiding me. i've eaten lunch in the toilets everyday since. they hate me lio..."

"cormac.. your friends— what the fuck?!" he stood up abruptly, "i'll kill him! hell, i'll kill all of them! how dare they just ditch you? especially freddie, what the!?"
"listen, i know, okay? i was mad too, but now i'm not even bothered." i sighed.
he raised an eyebrow, "i find that hard to believe." and i didn't really blame him.
"no really! i was upset about it at first, but my father helped me realise its their problem not mine. i won't apologise for how i feel about you, not anymore."

lionel looked at me with an amiable facial expression, lifted both his hands up and rested them on my cheeks and smiled. "you truly are amazing." i blushed.
"shut up." i tried to turn away to hide the grin on my face, but he pulled me towards him and planted a kiss on my nose.
"i'm so proud of you."
"i love you."

he moved backwards, "what?" and suddenly his facial expression dropped when he realised what i said. shit.
"wait—"
"you love me?"
my face scrunched, "yes." i answered simply; because it truly was nothing but a simple question. i do love him.

"nobody's ever said that to me before."
a smirk slid onto my face, "i find that hard to believe."
"no, i mean it." and then his head dropped down, his eyes turning dark and embarrassed. it was a sad sight, lionel didn't deserve this. nobody did.
"i love you." i grabbed onto his face and pulled him to look at me, "and i think i always will."