Chapter 30
"Kapag ba 'yong egg inihaw mamahalin niya ba ako?"
Ngumiwi ako sa sinabi ni Alyson. It's been two in the morning at nandito kami ngayon sa mini bar ng bahay ni Zerome. Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla niya nalang akong niyaya kanina na uminom at nagpaalam naman daw siya kay Zerome na dito kami iinom. Wala na akong nagawa dahil agad na niya akong hinila papasok dito.
She was now drunk and very noisy. Hawak-hawak niya ang bote ng tequila habang ako ay isang cocktail lang sa wine glass. I don't know what's wrong with her but I think she needs someone to talk to so I didn't say anything but to listen to all her rants right now. Kanina pa siya nagsasalita ng kung ano-ano at nakikinig lang naman ako.
"Pucha, akala ko crush niya rin ako! Tapos sabi niya kahapon ikakasal na siya sa iba? Gago, sakit!"
"What?"
"Oo, sis! Crush ko 'yong gagong 'yon kahit tarantado siya!" she cried. Nag-aalala na ako baka mamaya bigla siyang sumigaw kahit wala namang makakarinig sa amin dito.
"Who?" I asked.
Uminom siya ng alak sa bote at bumuntong hininga. Unshed tears crept on his eyes when she looked at me. Agad akong naawa sa kaniya. Pakiramdam ko ay ang sakit-sakit ng pinagdadaanan niya ngayon. If I am on her shoes, I will probably drunk all night knowing that my crush will getting married soon. Parang may tumusok sa puso dahil sa ala-alang iyon. The man that I loved before. Getting married with someone is very heartbreaking.
"Hindi mo siya kilala." sagot niya at marahas na pinunasan ang kaniyang luha sa kaniyang pisngi.
"Kaya nga tinatanong ko kung sino."
"Zack." she was smiling when he uttered her crush's name.
My forehead creased as I heard the name. Zack? Sounds familiar. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko narinig ang pangalang iyon. Pamilyar sa akin ngunit hindi ko maalala kung kailan at saan ko narinig ang pangalan niya. I think I heard it before? I'm not so sure.
"Ang gwapo niya. Gentleman, mabait, mayaman. Pero... hindi siya marunong mag crushback." ngumuso siya.
I chuckled. "Crushback?"
"Oo, sis. Iyong kapag may crush ka sa kaniya tapos crush ka rin? Ganon! Kaso gago siya, eh. Hindi marunong."
Tumango-tango ako at patuloy na nakinig sa mga sinasabi niya. Bumuntong-hininga ako habang nakatitig kay Alyson na patuloy sa pag-iyak at paglabas niya ng sama ng loob. I pity her. She's beautiful and kind. Naughty and can make everyone laugh. Sa maikling sandali na nakasama ko siya ay masasabi kong mabait talaga siya. She's the kind of a woman that every man can wish for. She's like a simple goddess from an ancient Greek. Her hair is naturally black, curl and wavy. Soft and fair skin. A bit taller than me. If I didn't know her, I will probably think that she's a model or someone who's from wealthy family.
I put myself on her situation. Before, I was hoping that that person that I loved will propose to me because I saw the ring inside his room. Akala ko ako na. Ngunit hindi pala. Alyson on the other hand, her crush didn't know about her feelings and now he told her that he's going to get married with someone. Pareho kami ng dahilan kaya kami nasasaktan, ngunit iba ang sitwasyon namin.
I love Zoren that I will risk everything for him even my life. Even though he'll put me on danger. Even though I was scared thinking that he can kill anyone he wants. Dahil kahit ako, hindi man niya pinatay physically, he still killed me emotionally. He killed my heart. Paulit-ulit iyon habang sinasabi niya ang nga masasakit na salitang ayaw ko nang marinig ngayon.
He put me on that situation that I was scared to love again. I was scared to love again because I know to myself that I have still feelings for him. And that's why I want to leave. I want to stay away from him. Gusto kong lumayo kami ng anak ko. Takot ako na baka kapag makita ko siya ulit ay hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko.
