In my veins

TWENTYTWO

Okay, i am back!

Und weil mich London einfach noch nicht loslässt, habe ich mich dazu entschieden dieses Kapitel auf englisch zu schreiben. Bei Bedarf übersetze ich das Kapitel natürlich gerne für euch.

Sonst bleibt nur noch gesagt dass das hier erst Mal nur eine Ausnahme ist :)

xx Natascha

PS: Fehler einfach übersehen ;) es geht um den Inhalt <3

SONG: KODALINE-ALL I WANT

Rhion was literally dragging me out of the garden, through the house and upstairs into my room. He was beyond pissed off and ich had no clue what would come next.

"You have no idea, darling , how happy i am to leave this place for good. Just you and me for the next weeks, all alone and no one will torture us with their presents." Okay, now that sounded absolutly terrifying to me. What would he do when we had no one arround us?

I had the sick feeling that he was up to no good, maybe that was the reason why i flinched from his touch when he tried to grab my arm and when he turned arround to look at me i was certain that i did the wrong thing.

"Sweetheart." he smiled sickley at me and took a step forward while i was taking one back. I ended up hitting my back at the wall und Rhion towering over me "Don't you dare doing this ever again." He grabbed my waist forcefully with both hands and squeezed it until i had trouble to breathe normaly. "You know how much i like to touch you and it kills me that i can't do all the bad and naughty stuff.... yet." Nausea hit me when i realized what he was trying to say "i could take you right here and now. Just for my pleasure and to assure you that i am just the same sick bastard he is always trying to hide from you." My whole body was shaken in fear by now. It wasn't Rhion who i was talking anymore, it was the evil and twisted Shadow inside him who was showing his demonic face.

"I know you would scream for me. It would please me... and you want to please me, don't you?"

I starred into his beautiful yet haunted eyes and asked myself how someone like him could become something like that. His handsome face was showing of the pure evil that was hidden inside him and it made me question how long the real Rhion would be strong enough to fight this dangerous side of him.

Suddenly i was pushed against the wall once again and a furious R looked down at me "DON'T SPACE OUT WHEN I AM TALKING TO YOU!" he snarled and i wimpered from his sudden outburst.

"Please stop.... i didn't.."

"You didn't what? Huh? You didn't do anything? You are innocent? Well guess what?! Not for long my dear Shae! Because i will rip every piece of innocence out of you in any way i can have you."

Tears where streaming down my cheeks and sobs of utter sadness left my mouth.

"Oh for fucks sake! Stop crying!" He hit the wall behind me with his fist and i shriecked away from him "You are so pathetic Shae! I have no clue why he is keeping you arround! It doesn't make any sense to me."

"Because..." i wispered, to scared to end my sentence but R heard it anyways and he seemed very interessted in my answer.

"Because what? He told you didn't he? Well isn't it just wonderful that he talks more to you, a hostage he is holding, than to his one true self?!"

"You are nothing like him!" i yelled filled with power i wasn't feeling before "You are pathetic! Not me! And yes Rhion told me everything. Also the fact that he despises you more than enything else."

"You bitch." he snapped and his hand connected with my face the next moment "Who said you could talk to me like that?"

I felt dizzy when i looked back at him and my head was pounding harshly but this time i wouldn't back down. I held my chin high and looked him directly in the eyes "I can do whatever i want! You are nothing to me because you are nothing. You don't even have the right to be with Rhion because he is so much better than you!" I wasn't sure about this fact but my instincts told me that i was right about fighting for Rhion. And even if it was just this one time.

This time R didn't talk back and that encouraged me to ramble on.

"Rhion has his flaws and no one knows this better than i do. But you are the one who is keeping him from beeing him and from beeing happy and i can't stand it! Do you know what he told me? Do you even realize what i am to him?

He told me that he loves me and even though i wasn't able to believe him i know now more than ever that he cares about me. He made me his "wife" and i can tell you that i am not happy about beeing forced into marriage but if he needs me by his side to fight you than- HELL YES- i will fight with him until you're dust and dirt, easy to rub of my boots!"

I was out of breath after my speech and didn't know what to do next. But the man next to me did.

His hands caressed my cheeks lightly, brushing away the tears and when i looked up i saw that R was not longer there. It was Rhion who looked down at me and he seemed deeply moved by my words.

We stood there without saying anything while he was holding my face and i felt something like victory when i looked into his clear blue eyes who didn't look haunted anymore.

"Thank you. Shae." he smiled lightly and i nodded in confirmation "Thank you so much. I would have hated myself. If something would have happend to you, i would have hated myself so much." his voice was nothing more than a slight wisper.

And then my world stopped from spinning when his lips touched my lips with a gently yet bittersweet force, which blew my mind off.

And i closed my eyes and let it happen...