"Yearning in Silence"

2.

Kim

I am not really into the idea of falling inlove, I don't like it, it sounds annoying.

I think love is nulled,
Love could is horrible
People might have misunderstood the meaning of love and only focused on its positive categories
But love isn't always beautiful
Love may play trick on us,
Love would make us want to gain more
Love makes us greedy
Love makes us feel all sorts of negative  emotions

Because love isn't always rainbows and sunshines.

On the contrary of love there are this feelings of sadness, pain, and heartaches.

Sometimes we were too occupied with the thought of how beautiful love is, that we often forget its consequences.

Love isn't always beautiful, there would be rains, and storms.

Love is the reason we feel anger, greed, envy, jealousy, obsessions and possessions.

People think that I'm a man with no flaws... But I am. But that's what they believed so that's what they saw... They couldn't see through me...

They didn't know that I'm incapable of falling inlove. Or maybe I just don't allow myself to open my heart, and act oh so sweet.

But then there's this guy... Who somehow wants me to change my mind and just forget being an asshole, and love him.

My classmates misunderstood, and thought that I like Porchay in romantic way... But I don't.

Okay fine, Porchay is a good human being, he is nice, Pretty, smart as fuck, we vibe he knows how to sing and plays guitar, he also play online games, he is calm, and a sunshine.

Everyone could fall inlove with him, but not me. I don't fall inlove with a friend. But if in any circumstances if he isn't my friend... I don't know, I just couldn't imagine us being together like a couple. I did try, I tried looking at him, staring at him to see if my heart would beat for him, but it didn't.

And besides he has a friend... I like his friend more, I'm not comparing though Porchay is beautiful... But as I've mentioned earlier I don't see Porchay as anything other than friend.

And Porchay's brother is my brother's boyfriend, I'm pretty sure that man would kill me if I hurt his sunshine, which won't happen if I don't fall inlove with him. Because I believe that heartache is simply the consequence of falling inlove.

Then

"Are you heading this way too?" I asked Porchay who somehow looked like a stalker tailing behind me, as he didn't talk much, well what would I expect he is a transferee, and still new to places.

"Uh- yeah, my brother's apartment is on this side, how about you?" He asked shyly,  cute.

"Yeah, obviously. My brother's apartment is just a few more step away" I answered shrugging.

"Hmm, okay!" He smiled at me and turned his head sideways as he run towards someone waiting by the gate...

And yep, we're neighbors.

As soon as I stepped towards our home, I finally figured out who Porchay run towards to...

Porsche Kittisawat my brother's boyfriend.

That's why! I knew I've heard his surname before, I must've forgotten since I don't really come to this place often. Today's just special day since it's Khun's birthday he'd whine if I don't come, and he didn't want to celebrate it at the mansion since no one's there at all.

"Hey" I heard Kinn's voice, I side eyed him, and realized that he came from the neighbors gate.

People in love sucks.

"So you're Porchay's classmate?" He asked

I nodded

"Doesn't he look good?" He continued

"Stop asking questions, and why were you at their house?" I asked raising my eyebrows at him.

" You'd know if you get a boyfriend"  he answered smirking  ruffling my hair as he walked towards the door.

I walked straight to my room as soon as I went inside the house.

I opened my bedroom's window, ah yeah I had forgotten that this neighborhood has same house structure, so as soon as I opened it I saw Porchay doing the opposite, he was closing his curtain, and he saw me. He waved at me, and closed it.

"KIM!!!" I closed my eyes as soon as I heard the voice shouting my name.

I lied on my bed, and cover myself with a blanket.

"Oi, Kim! You didn't even bother to greet me?!! It's my birthday!!!" Khun shouts as soon as he entered my room...

I sat up on my bed, looking at him.

"Happy birthday! I couldn't buy you gift, and I don't think I need to, since my presence is much more than just a present" I said confidently, opening my arms.

Khun smiled at me, and went into my embrace.

" Thank you. though I'd appreciate it more if you brought Dr.Top" he uttered.

People in love sucks.

I rolled my eyes at him, and ruffled his hair.

"Go out now, I'll sleep for a while. And please do close the door." I said pushing him away

"I'll wake you up once the food's ready."
He answered, closing the door behind him.

I don't plan on sleeping though, I'll just play my guitar and waste my time.

I peek on the window near my study table and noticed that the curtain is open and saw Porchay playing guitar as well... He plays guitar too, damn, what a good match.