"Yearning in Silence"

17

Then

Chay

Today's our last day in highschool, and to say that I'm not enjoying it way too much would be a lie. I think I am the happiest person alive.

I was awarded as valedictorian in our class, and my mom was so happy, I saw her tearing up  and mouthing "I'm proud of you" as I stood up on stage, and perform my speech.

And not only that I've received lots of love letters from other sections, and even juniors.

Funny thing is that there is this guy named Tom, who is also one of those people who gave me letter and a bouquet of red rose... And  I do know him since first year I just didn't give him much attention since I'm not really into him, but he is good looking, and kind, and... Smart... He also received an academic award.

Back on track I've received fifteen love letters, and a bouquet of red roses.

My mom went home with P'Porsche, and told me I should stay a little, so I could have fun, as they'll prepare my favorite foods.

"You're so popular, I hate you!" Macau sulked holding a box of chocolate.

He sat next to me, we're currently at the student's plaza.

" You're the one to talk, you've been dragged out by almost every juniors just so they could confess to you."  I answered, he stomped his feet like a kid.

" But none of them gave me letters. " He complained crossing his arm

" They gave you chocolates isn't that enough?" I asked

Well for me it would be more than enough.

Who'd say no to chocolates?

" I want letters too! " He continued to complain

" Where's Kim?" I wondered

Macau stopped complaining, and he looked at me.

" I saw him with a girl from other section. " He simply said

I smiled, despite the pain filling my heart.

"Let's make a bet..." I started

"We'll guess how many love letters Kim received today" 

" We'll guess how many love letters he received today? "

Macau and I said in unison. We smiled excitedly .

"Yeah, I guess it'll be a good bet since he's pretty popular" Macau says

" If I lose, I'll give you a surprise gift. " I offered

" If you lose, you'll give me your chocolates. " I continued

" Hmm, what gift? " Macau asked

" A surprise gift, I don't know yet. " I said giggling

" Okay fine, make sure your gift is worth it. "

" I'll bet... He received hmm twenty four love letters." I started

" I'm guessing, he received thirty." Macau said too confident.

" Isn't it too much?" I asked

"No. It's Kim we're talking about." He shrugged.

Speaking of....I spotted him walking towards us, as he was waving his hand.

"He is here, are you ready to lose?" I whispered to Macau's ear

"Nah, dude you're losing." He whispered back

Kim finally reached us, he stood in front of us confused. He is holding paper bag.

"Why are you whispering?" He asked
"Nothing, what's with the paper bag?" Macau asked him in return

"Ah, I bought it on the way here, my hands are full of letters, I can't just hold them. So I bought this." He answered lifting the said paper bag

Macau then turned to me, smirking.

"How many letters did you got?" I asked

Kim smiled at me, and my heart suddenly flipped. I took a deep breath and smiled back.

"I didn't count them yet" he answered putting the bag down. He sat on the grass.

Macau and I sat next to him excitedly.

"Don't you want to count them?" I probed

"That's... Suspicious you don't actually care about how many I received right? Unless..." He looked at me and Macau, judging.

" You made a bet." He continued in disbelief

Both me, and Macau started laughing much for Kim's dismay.

"That's what best friends do, Kim." Macau told him, containing his laughter, but failed.

"Yeah, Kim... And If I win, I'll have his chocolates!" I said excitedly

Kim shakes his head, smiling. He then started counting the letters one by one.

I don't know if it was just my imagination, and I shouldn't really care about it but I saw a letter, with Lia's name on it...

I was to focus on my thoughts of Lia and Kim dating or whatever. And it did hurt me. If Kim started dating Lia it means... He sees everything around me, but not me.

"Anddd twenty" Kim's voice seeped through me that it stopped my thoughts.

"T-twenty what?" I questioned

"Just twenty, guess none of us wins" Macau shrugged

I pouted, I wanted the chocolate though

"I'll just buy you chocolate, stop pouting, kid." Macau teased

I rolled my eyes at him, and stood up.

" Do you want chocolate that bad? " Kim asked, standing in front of me.

" I'm CRAVING!" I stated almost shouting

"Why is it that you only have twenty letters, you should collect more, like four more" I scolded him.

Macau laughed even harder, and Kim chuckled

"Macau's gonna buy you chocolate though." He said shrugging.

"And I'll buy you your favorite iced coffee" he offered

I looked at him smiling from ear to ear.

"You two are the Best!" I shouted, and starts running towards the convenience store.

I guess, despite thinking about Kim and Lia dating... I could still consider this last day in highschool as one of the most memorable day ever.

But I haven't told them about me leaving...I'm still thinking it through.