"Yearning in Silence"

11

3rd Person's P. O. V

Yohan and Kim didn't end up together. Yohan realized that he didn't like Kim as much as he wanted to, and Kim... Misinterpret his own feelings, he thought he was inlove, but no, he was infatuated. They talked it out and was cool with it.

Macau is anti romantic, he didn't like anyone when they were in highschool. But he stayed with Chay, to protect him, to be with him, and support him.

Kim didn't have any idea who inspires Chay to write songs.

Both of them stayed friends for the entire highschool days, though  Chay wanted to tell Kim, he never had a chance.

They hang out almost everyday, make songs together, eat foods, went arcade, bowling, and playing guitar, people often think that they're couple, but they aren't, not when Kim didn't want to.

Their bond was unbreakable, they were so strong. And Chay fell inlove with Kim even deeper.

Chay wanted to confess to Kim while they were still in highschool... He did.

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Then

Chay

It's been three years since I liked Kim, loved rather—

Today, our professor announced that we'll be having a Prom for graduating students.

Everyone wants Prom, to finally dance with someone they like...

There would be a lot of couples who's coupled in that time.

Kim told me he wouldn't be asking Yohan anymore considering of what happened between them, though it was impeccable, it would be awkward, that what he told me.

So Kim  asked me to be his partner instead, Yohan asked Macau to be his, while Lia didn't want to come since her lover just broke up with her last week. Tragic.

I've already prepared my suit  earlier this morning, which would be impossible if 'P'Khun didn't  help me. I owe him a lot.

I'll confess to Kim tonight, I hope I'm not making a bad decision. Since tonight is the first and last time I'll be dancing with Kim, I think I should do it. Wish me luck!

/Later that night, the party started, it was so mesmerizing, everyone looked good.

Yohan being the center of the attention, Kim being the head turner.

Damn I feel jealous though, they do look good.

And then the party started the slow music starts its slow beat, opposite to how my heart beats at the moment....

Kim is walking towards me, smiling from ear to ear, and he held his hand out... Asking me for a dance, I smiled at him as well, I might seem calm as I hold his hand, but my inside is shaking....

Butterflies,
butterflies,
butterflie—

We went on the center of all the couples.

One thing that makes my heart jump even faster is when Kim encircled his hand on my waist. No,  he didn't just place his hand on my waist, he ENCIRCLED his hands, holding me so tightly that it made my knees tremble of how close we were.

And as if it wasn't enough, he then rest his head on my shoulder as we sway in the rhythm of the music. It was hard for me to act calm, my breathing became rapid, as I closed my eyes, begging myself to calm down.

I heard Kim sighed, and felt his breath all over my body.

Gosh
Gosh
Gosh

We stayed like that until the music stops

He then removed his hand on my waist.

'Oh no, please don't'. My heart begs.

"Do you wanna ditch the party?" He asked, holding my hand this time.

I grinned at him, as I nodded vigorously.

We ran away from the center of the crowd, and then went to the rooftop, and just sat there cherishing  the beautiful moments of life.

"So... What are we gonna talk about?" I asked, breaking the silence.

"Nothing, I just want you here." He admitted turning his head towards me.

I think... This is my time to confess to him.

"Kim..." I started, looking straight in his eyes.

"Hm?" He hummed, asking me to continue.

"Do you remember when you asked who inspires me with the lyrics I composed?.." I stopped, I didn't know what to say, I suddenly felt so afraid of telling him.

"..." He didn't answer, he just looked at me, waiting for me to finish

"I wrote them for you, I have feelings for you since we were 1st year." That's all I could utter. And then I avoided eye contact.

"I– I don't know what to say, Chay... You're my best friend, and I uh— " he stammered, but then he doesn't say anything after saying I am his best friend.

I turned to Kim this time, stared at his eyes looking for something that might help  me find an answer... And I did....

I must have been too occupied with my feelings towards him, that I forgot to look in his eyes and read it....

All this time, I thought- oh god! I mistook his kindness into this?

I swallowed the lump that's forming on my throat, and avoided his gaze.

He doesn't have to say anything, just by the look of it. I know the answer, I think I knew the answer even before, I just didn't want to accept it.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that, I'm so sorry." I said, as I slowly stood up, and walked outside the event...

As I was walking on the road, the rain suddenly poured heavily...

I sighed, closed my eyes as tears flows in them, letting my body get soaked by the rain.

What a mem'rable day...