i refuse to sink.

chapter five.

"So umm what happened to your dad?" Zayn asked shyly not sure whether this topic was uncomfortable for me. I took a drag from my cigarette before answering Zayns question.

"He died of cancer 3 years ago right before my 17th birthday. He had brain cancer, we knew something was wrong but he wouldn't tell us. My dad was my best friend, we did everything together, my mom was always at work so me and my dad grew closer and closer. I came home one day and no one was home, Rita my nanny said my dad was rushed to the hospital. I arrived at the hospital and my sister and my mom were crying so hard I didn't know what happened. They told me he was dying, I ran. I ran away and didn't come back until later. I knew I had to say bye to my dad." I inhaled to try to stop the tears that were already streaming down my face. "So I snuck in that night, and my dad told me everything was going to be fine and that when he was out of the hospital he would take me to New York, because I always wanted to go there and he promised me on my 16th birthday I could. Well he didn't wake up from his sleep 2 days later, also May 9th the day before I turned 16. I cried for a few months, I was excused from school I sat up in my room the whole day crying. My mom couldn't do anything so she said we were moving. So we moved into a huge house, just me and my mom because my sister ran away, she was 20 years old and I haven't heard from her since, no one has. So now I live by myself with Rita and mom comes home sometimes, but I never see her. I tried telling her when I was raped, but she was on a conference call and wouldn't listen, so no one was there me." I choked the last part out, I was crying hysterically now. No one knew what I just told him apart form Rita and Tori.

"I am so sorry babe, know that I am always here, we all are. You are part of the family now. I am so sorry you had to go through that alone. Your mom loves you, she really does she may not show it but she could still be having a hard time." Zayn pulled me onto his lap while I cried into his shoulder.

"I'm sorry, I cry a lot. I just have no one to tell, you probably think I am some freak who crys over everything." I quickly said trying to stand up.

"Shhhh, never say that. I care so much for you Morgan I want to protect you." Zayn pulled me back down and whispered in my ear.

What I did next was not in my planner, I didn't know what I was doing. I kissed him. Zayn was shocked at first but kissed back. It got pretty heated then we heard someone yell.

"We're leaving." Niall yelled. Zayn and I jumped apart and blushed, thankfully it looked like Niall didn't see. I stood up and quickly went through the door but not before Niall whispered in my ear. "I saw that." I quickly turned my head, jaw dropped. "Its our little secret babe." Niall nodded assuring me he wouldn't tell.

"Thanks Niall." I kissed him on the cheek and walked back into the restaurant.

"What happened Morgan? Have you been crying?" Louis asked when I walked up to the table. All eyes darted towards me. Harry looked at me, his eyes full of concern. Did he care?

"Oh yeah, its pretty windy out there so my eyes were watering a little. Haha don't worry I am fine." I smiled they all nodded, knowing I wouldn't tell them the truth. I let out a sigh of relief that they didn't keep pestering me with questions. I followed them out the door.

"You know, it's not windy." I heard a husky voice whisper in my ear. I looked back and saw Harry looking me in the eyes.

"It was when I was out here." I retorted.

"Right, I believe you." Harry smirked. Well he is cocky bastard. But a hot cocky bastard that is.

"I'm not lying." I argued.

"You really should work on lying, you're a terrible liar, you know that right?"

"Whatever, you should work on your staring, its rude to stare, you know that right?" I spat at him. Yep, I just mocked Harry Styles.